Lost Until I Found You

N I N E|| Crazy For You

Bleu

Prom is Friday which is in 2 days. im super scared but Tray hasnt asked me so we might no go together. im kinda sad but i know that Aija would go with me.. wait nope shes going with Dae. they are truly cute. i need more friends. mine a currently occupied. Anyway im jus going to get my hair done. i think i wanna try blue. i love doing crazy colors i dont know why. i grabbed my new keys to my new care that Tray bought me. It was a Jeep 2016 Wrangler. im a simple gal. im glad he didnt get me a Benz or anything. i wonder how he bought it. i mean his parents have butt loads of money - i think. OMG I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MY BOYFRIEND BESIDES HIS BIRTHDAY. which is ‪November 2nd.‬ but thats beside the point. we are having a little date night at my house tonight. I got in my jeep and headed to the salon blasting Drake Views.

Tray

I miss lil mama she my baby. i love her fr. i been kinda distant lately but i been at the trap tryna get some money to move out. I already know what you thinking. yes my parents are rich. but ion wanna live off them forever. i wanna do me, im moving out by my birthday maybe even the day of. i cant stand living there. they try to be a classic 'White' family. but why we black. we niggas. why yall tryna be what yall aint. they argue every fucking night like divorce already im tired of yall mf's. Anyway, prom is coming up and i cant wait. i got this idea to ask her. she thought i forgot or she think im not gon ask her but why would she think that. i want to flaunt my girl before anybody else do. i was counting the money that was made this week and we made above our goal which was 350,000 and we made 550,000. my phone buzzed and it was from my babygirl.

BabyGirl💍💙: Babyyyyyy
Me: Yesss baybehhhhhh 😂
BabyGirl💍💙: i miss you daddy😩.
she knew she was starting something.
Me: I miss you more baby😌 Now stop tryna start something you cant finish😂
BabyGirl💍💙:😂 Come over around 5 we gotta talk😊
oh shit. im nervous.
Me: alr ma see you soon😘.
BabyGirl💍💙: Bye✌🏼️.
Me: where my kiss?🤔
BabyGirl💍💙:😘😘😘😘😘 sorry daddy.
i love this girl mann. i looked at the time. it was ‪4:43‬ it take 30 minutes to get to her house. i put the money in the safe and locked it. then i walked out my office turning the alarm on and locking it. I dapped T-Dog the body guard leaving the trap before getting in my car heading to my BabyGirl.

Bleu
"yesss bihh. buh guess what?" i said to Aija on ft.(FaceTime)
she looked up from painting her toes. cheap ass "what?" she cocked her eyebrow. " he aint even ask me yet" i said. she gasped "bitchhhhhh" "i know righttt" i dragged. " girl Dae been asked me  he asked me so romantically i cried." i rolled my eyes. "betta stop before they get stuck." i rolled them again pretending they got stuck. " quit playinggg" she said laughing. the doorbell rang. i grabbed my phone and walked to the door and saw my babyyyyyyyyy. i jumped on him and he caught me. he was caring me on his hip like i was a baby. he must be strong because im 5'5 and thick. he said hey to nana then carried me upstairs to my room and laid me on the bed kissing me. I sat up and he sat next to me as he put his arm around my shoulders. "so what you wanna talk about ma?" he asked trying to hide he was nervous. "calm down i don't wanna break up with you or anything" he left out a sigh of relief but he was still a little tense. "i jus wanna get to know you a lil more i mean.. i don't know anything but your parents name and your birthday. I've told you almost everything and you haven't told me anything. i love you to much to judge you" he looked at me and thought about what i jus said and he kissed me. "theres not much to tell. im 18 my name is Trayvon Michael Taylor my parents get on my nerves and argue every five seconds. im a virgin-" i was shocked and my mouth dropped "now thats a damn lie." he laughed so hard. "no im serious. i wouldn't lie to you baby" i looked in his eyes and sure enough he was telling the truth. he licked his lips as he looked me up and down. I mean.. i looked hit. i had a loose T-shirt on with some Soffe shorts. he rubbed my inside thigh and i tensed up. " im in love with this beautiful girl named Bleu Harper Grey and i cant get enough of her." that was crazy. i never told him my whole name. how did he know? he saw i was kinda scared. "you dont remember me do you?" he said with a smirk but sadness in his eyes. i shook my head. " well when you were 9 you would come down every summer" and that was true but how did he knew that. " and you would go to wood lake park every Saturday with this little baby.. her name was..." he was thinking. "Lydia. m-my little sister Lydia. we used to go all the time and i would put her in the swing and push her. and we used to play in this sandbox with this little boy named- TRAY! OMGGG. YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND AND YOU Y-" i was so shocked "calm down ma. im here." he held me. " y-you used to walk me home and stay with me so my daddy wouldn't try to hurt me." I used to come home late sometimes because of hanging out with Tray and Tray used to take the heat for me. and when my dad used to touch me inappropriately he would be the one i told and he would hold me like he does now. i told him everything he really was my bestfriend. i cried in his arms all the memories coming back. *KNOCK KNOCK* someone was knocking on my door. quickly dried my tears and said "come in!" and in came the women who took everything from me with the man who hurt me the most. Tray looked at me and held my hand. Nathaniels facial expression changed as he saw Tray. he was even more mad when he saw were in bed together. " i thought i told you not to ever speak to him again!!" his voice boomed through my room. i cried instantly as my face started to sting. i felt my grasp on Trays hand loosen as his warm figure wasn't as close. i looked up to see Tray with a gun pointed at him. i cried harder. " you see this is who he really is sweetie my dad said as he walked toward me. i scooted away and hid behind Tray my dad was pissed. "oh really? how about you jus move in with him. how about you jus live with him since you think he can save you." i looked at him like he was crazy. "This my grandma house" he laughed. " your grandma? she jus got in a car accident she dead " he laughed harder. anger built up. i snatched the gun from Tray and pointed it toward Nathaniel. "we all know you wont shoot" i looked at him hard my eyes narrow. " you've done nothing for me my entire life. you've done nothing but hurt me and my mother. i didnt even get to have a normal childhood. i used to stay up late and watch tv and then i pretend i was sleep when you'd walk in the room and touch me. i was 11 years old what the fuck is wrong with you!! you took away my innocence. Im so glad mom walked in that one day you tried to go inside me. i hate you. i hate you more than anybody. Just know that this will be the last thing you'll hear from anybody." tears were streaming down my face and my grip on the gun tightened. "wha-" *Bang!* the bullet when straight through his head in between his eyes. my mom dropped down and started crying Tray took the gun. and i went to pack all my stuff quickly so we could leave. i went in my nanas room to where she told me if anything was to happen take whatever was in there. i opened the safe and got the money jewelry and everything else in there including the family pictures. Tray Grabbed my hand and took me to my car. "follow me. im taking you somewhere." i nodded and put my stuff in the back of my jeep. i got in and drive off. Tray must be a trapper. theres no way. i felt like i was finally safe. Nathaniel was gone. part of me regrets it the other part feels happy. i followed Tray into this neighborhood. Aija lives in this neighborhood. i instantly got excited. we pulled up to this nice house. it wasn't super big but it was a nice house. i got my stuff out the back and walked behind Tray he opened the door and the inside looked better then ever. i dropped my stuff. Tray picked me up and took me up the stairs to what seemed to be our room and took me to the bathroom sitting me on the counter as he started the shower. he started to undress me. i covered up my body as he pulled my panties off. I've always been self conscious of my body. i had C cup boobs and i didn't have a very small waist. i mean it wasn't wide but it wasn't  small. i have a big butt but i have stretch marks up my hips and on my arms. ive been self conscious about them since i was younger. i was chubbier then and thats what caused this. he looked at me like i was crazy as he took me off the counter and placed me on my feet. i was facing him and i covered my self still. i looked back at him noticing his clothes were off and he had nothing on either. i looked at his friend. I gasped. "its ok ma we not doing nothing. " he chuckled. as he removed my arms. he looked me up and down licking his lips. " damn ma you beautiful. what you covering up for?" i shrugged he kissed me so passionately. he took us to the shower and he bathed me and i bathed him. it was weird scrubbing his 'friend' but he helped me. we got out and he looked so sexy. he dried me off and went downstairs to get my stuff. he came back up and dropped my stuff in the room and then he came over to me picking me up and putting me on the bed. He then went down to my area. he started by teasing my clit by licking it softly making me squirm he then start licking my slit up and down until he went to work. his tounge game was so goodddddd. i mean i think. hes the only one I've ever been with so i wouldnt know but it was some awesome pleasure. he tried to put finger in. i gasped. "damn you tight ma." he groaned in my ear. making me wet. he went in and out faster and faster "ooooh shitttt. im bouttaaa cummmmmmmm" i screamed but he stopped before i did. i got mad " i hate yo ugly ass." i said as i rolled my eyes. "you said what?" he looked at me with a cocked eyebrow. " i said i dont like yo ug-" and he started going back to work with his toungue and his finger "ahhhhh. babyyyyy" i came over and over. then he just stopped and walked away. he seemed down. i walked over to him. "are you ok babe?" i said rubbing his back. " im fine babe." i turned him around and he looked sad. "your lying. " " i jus wanna put this dick in you but i dont think we are ready. " i looked at him. he really cared about me. i kissed him. " baby look at me." he continued to look down so i put my hands on either side of his face and said " this.." i took his hand and touched my pussy "and this.." i took his hand and touched my boobs "and this." i went down to my ass ".. is all yours. im yours. do what you want. " he looked at me for a while.