Reborn

Chapter 1

I was sober tonight sadly that isn't very regular for me. I haven't been surrounded by the nicest of people. People ranging from the people I met at the bar all the way to others I met in a alley while drunk. I have put myself in this situation and now I have to get out of it. I need to be reborn. As I was packing my bag this morning Samantha called a young girl I met at a party about a year ago. I picked up and she called to tell me that her X was having a party tonight if I wanted to come it's been three hours and I'm still undecided. I don't have to drink I told myself but I can't resist. Alcohol has to strong of a hold on me as of right now. Bringing that up I decided not to go. I packed up a bag and decided to take a small trip I need to find myself not this monster that has taken me over for the last 9 years of my life since I have gotten drunk because it felt good. Well the mistakes I made while drunk is what didn't feel good what made me part of that monster but that wasn't the only thing that made me a monster. My friends my actions and my temptations those are the things that makes me a monster. This isn't me I need to find me. I pack up a small bag and head to the airport I check my phone again I had six missed calls from Samantha. I didn't call back I couldn't she would talk me into going and everything that I am trying to work up to would be gone. It's 9:30 the party started 30 minutes ago sorry Samantha I told myself as I got into my car.