Do you even care? //yoonmin

1.2

  Thankfully, Jimin agreed to the date. He actually seemed pretty happy that I asked him... What a great actor he is.

  To change the subject suddenly, I also released my song yesterday and the fans gave me lots of love. It died quickly but it was the main buzz for a few hours... If Jungkook were to post a video of him dancing it would be the news for at least a few days. I am useless.

  Back to the main topic, as any other bad story about a couple, we decided probably the cheesiest date idea in the world, mini golfing.

  What? It's cheap, and probably none of our fans would be there to spot us. We have a mini golf place around 30 minutes away that not a lot of people go to, but it's actually quite nice.

  "Jimin, you ready?" I knocked on his door trying to sound cheerful. Ew I hate myself for acting like this.

  "Mmhm!" He opened the door.

  I'm going to be honest, my heart fluttered. Sure, he doesn't like me, but I sure do like him. His eye smile was enough to make me smile in return; it wasn't fake.

  "Ah you look nice today," I looked him up and down. I saw a blush creep up on his face.

  Aish, where did this kid get acting lessons. I need to meet this guy who taught him.

  "You look even better, hyung!"

  I was just wearing my usual ripped jeans and a plain black sweater. My hair wasn't having it today so I decided to throw on a beanie as well.

  "Aish, let's go," I quickly turned and grabbed his hand. Why not, let's put his acting skills to the test.

  "Why so touchy all of a sudden, hyung?" I looked at Jimin who was red faced.

  "Am I not allowed to hold the hand of the person I love?" I let out a small smirk. Jimin shook his head.

  "Ah, yeah, sorry," he giggled. So cuteee.

  I drove us to the mini golf place and on the way we had a friendly conversation about who was going to win the game. We decided winner gets a favor from the other, anything they want.

  "It's on, Hyung!" He set his ball down first and took a light swing. The ball rolled down the fake grass and ended up around 2 feet away from the hole. Not bad.

  "Watch and learn," I popped all my fingers and took a swing. The ball went directly in the hole. I looked back at Jimin and he was pouting.

  "Not faiiirrrrrr, I didn't know you were good at mini golf!" He stomped his foot and walked towards his ball, dragging his golf club. I chuckled a little at his cuteness. He putted it in the hole and we moved to the next.

  In the end, I won getting either a par or better in each hole, while Jimin got a par or one over on every hole. Not bad, though.

  "You win, hyung... What do you want?"

  Oh yeah, I forgot about the prize. I thought for a second but couldn't decide.

  "Can I decide later? I can't think of anything right now," I smiled. Jimin nodded and we got back in the car. Before I could start the car Jimin spoke up.

  "Hey, hyung?"

  I looked at him instead of responding. My stomach dropped at how cute he looked, but it also dropped because I wasn't sure what he was going to say.

  "I'm really happy that you are finally happy. I mean it changed so suddenly, but I like this version of you!" He smiled showing his teeth.

  I could've killed myself then and there. Not because of how cute he was, no. I would've killed myself at the words he spoke.

  I like this version of you... Of course. Just as expected.

  I still wait for the day when people accept me for the real person I am. I usually don't smile much, I like to remain with a straight face. Besides, I often don't feel much... Or i either feel too much.

  My point is, this so called "new me" is apparently the way everyone wants me to be. Do I have to live like this forever? Act all sunshine and rainbows on the outside, while in the inside its cloudy days and storms?

  I responded with a nod and looked away starting the car. My heart crumbled to pieces. Maybe this is the way it should be. Hide the pain with a smile. He said it makes him happy, right? I would do so much in the world to make him happy...

  Although, it feels like if he were cold I would light myself on fire to keep him warm, but if I was cold, he would only light a match.

  But that's just how it is, I care for him and love him so much but apparently it's all just an act in his eyes.