Don't Go

Is This Graduating?

So I woke up, got ready for school, and went to the bus stop. When I got there Emalee immediately stopped talking to Tyler, and came to hug me. I knew, and she knew, why she was hugging me. Knowing that your best friend is seriously sick, and that's it's a cloudy day. Makes you feel like crap. "I'm so so sorry, Cori." Emalee said. I tried my best not to cry, and I didn't. I had a real urge to cry. "It's not fair that he has to be sick. When he such a nice, loving, and trustworthy boy." I said sadly to Emalee. I didn't want to say Artemi's name, but she knew who I meant. Tyler knew what we were upset about, he just didn't want to talk about it. I totally understand if Tyler doesn't want to talk about it. "I know it's not fair. I understand. Just pray that 'he' will be ok." Emalee said ending our hug moment. "He's done so much for me. And I might never get to repay'm." I said looking at the sky. "You will. When he needs you most. That's when you'll repay him." Emalee said assuring me. When we got to school there was no sign of Artemi, or Anisimov anywhere. I remember Anisimov specifically saying that they would be here today, Monday. So instead I sat with Kayla, Emalee, and Tyler in the cafeteria. Jamie's group of populars were next to us. I figured his group, and him, sat here because Tyler was. I texted Anisimov while we were waiting for the first bell to ring. I wanted to know why they weren't at school today. I didn't get a response. At hockey practice Teuvo wanted to why I was upset. "Hey Cori. Why the lone face?" He asked. "Did you hear about Artemi?" I asked him. "Um...is it about him being sick, and the fact that he's not here, and you're worried about him being seriously sick to cause death? Then yeah, I heard about that. I'm witnessing that right now." Teuvo said exactly what I was sort of gonna tell him. "That's basically right. I'm upset about Artemi. I mean he's my best friend, and I love all my best friends." I explained. "Aww, you love him. And I'm not gonna be one of those people that say they understand, cause I don't. So I'm just gonna say, I feel upset a little to. That kid is fun to hangout with. Without him, how am I supposed to have another friend. I mean, when you and Andrew are busy, I have Artemi. He lives on the same street as me, so he's like the boy next door. I enjoy playing street hockey with him an Andrew. He's one of my best friends to. So I basically am feeling what you're feeling, but since you love him, I don't. He's not my crush, he's yours. I know that sounded weird, but I hope you understand what I'm saying. Alright I gotta go. I'll see you later, bye friend!"Teuvo said before leaving practice. I get what he said. Sure it took me a minute, but I got it. I do have a crush on Artemi, and he is my best friend, but to Teuvo it's not like that. He's just the boy next door. I knew Teuvo would listen, and understand what I was saying. He basically kind of feels the same. Later that day, Courtney did the same. Said she was sorry about Artmei, and that she understands. She probably does understand how I feel. She went through Andrew, and still is. Later that day I finally got a response from Anisimov. And when I read it I fell to my knees. No ligit I actually fell to my knees. This is what it said,
"Hey Cori. You're not gonna like this, but Artemi's at the hospital now. If you come now I can tell you all that happened. That's probably what you're doing now. See you soon."
That is what is exactly what I did. I told my mom why I was leaving. Though she did want to talk about it, but I winged it. "Mom! This is serious I need to leave! I'll tell all about it later." I exclaimed, and left. I knew which hospital they were at. When I got there I rushed to the front desk. "Excuse me? Do you know what room Artemi Panarin is in?" I asked the lady at the front desk. "Uh, yes. But you'll have to wait about 10min." The lady said. So I paced the waiting room for about 15min, until Anisimov came in. "Cori! Come quick! Artemi wants to see you." He exclaimed. I immediately went with Anisimov to room 90. The same number I am for hockey. When we walked through the door I saw Artemi laying in bed. There were two machines next to the bed. They were hooked up to Artemi. One was for his heart, and the other for his breathing. He waved and smiled at us. "What happened?" I asked Anisimov in shock. "He fainted this morning. His parents didn't know what was wrong with him. So they brought Artemi here, the hospital. When the doctors check him, they decided it was best to keep him here." Anisimov said walking towards the visitor chairs. I sat in a chair that was near Artemi, and laid my head on the side of the bed. He looked at me still smiling, and reached for my hand. As he held my hand I lightly started crying. I mean, why would I not. "No cry. I still here." Artemi said squeezing my hand. I looked up at him, "Don't you dare go." I said putting his hand on my cheek. Anisimov didn't mind our moment, he just watched. He seemed happy almost, just to see Artemi happy. I didn't want to leave that afternoon. I had to go home, and visiting time was over. It was gonna be hell telling everyone about this. I don't want to talk about it, hopefully people will make it a rumor, or just be like 'oh yeah Artemi's sick' type thing. I told my mom about what happen, and she says 'everything will be alright'. Isn't that what they all say, and then nothing turns out 'alright'. That night I did a little prayer for Artemi. I only pray hard for important things, though I do pray every week. But this is important, to me. But quick question. Is this, all that I'm doing for Artemi, the crying, going to the hospital, being his best friend, always hanging out with him, is that love?
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My graduation is in two weeks, and I'm not up for it. This month has been crazy all month already, and now I'm graduating high school. Not to mention prom is next week as well. I don't even have a date. Of course Emalee is going with Tyler, and Courtney is going with Andrew. Kayla got lucky and got asked out to prom by one of the cutest guys in school, Caden. He's not really popular just really cute. I'll just wait, and see if Artemi asks me. Maybe he'll be able to go by then. I still have to go to school, though I would rather be at the hospital with Artemi. "Cori...you know what I'm not gonna ask. You're definitely not 'ok' obviously. I mean you're wearing Artemi's sweater." Emalee said while we were waiting for the bus. I was wearing Artemi's Russian hockey sweater. It is a comfortable sweater. I stole it from him when I was at the hospital. "It's alright, I feel a little happier in this sweater. How's your day been?" I said. I truly felt a happier in Artemi's sweater. "My day has been good. Tyler already asked me out to prom, and I said yes." She said happily. "That's nice. I might not go, depends on if 'he' asks me." I said knowing that Emalee knew what 'he' meant. "Oh, you're right. You never know. 'He' might be better by then." She said looking positive. "I wish for 'he' to be better by then." I said looking down. "Cori, 'he' would die for you. I hope you know, and realize that. Believe me, Artemi told me." She said looking at me seriously. I could tell she was being serious. "Hey guys!" Kayla said walking towards us. "Hey, Kayla!" I said trying to sound happy. "You guys excited about prom?" She asked happily. "Hey, good job going out with Caden to prom." Emalee said not being serious anymore. She looked more happy now. "Can't wait sounds like fun." I said sounding as happy as I could. I wasn't sure if Kayla knew about Artemi or not, but I didn't want to talk about it anymore. "Cori are you going with Artemi?" Kayla asked curious. I had to think of an answer so I made one up. "Uh, yeah I think we might be going. We talk about going, but he never really asked me out yet." "Oh, I hope he gets better, and takes you. I heard he was really sick. Be careful around him, don't get sick." Kayla responded. Soon enough the bus came, and I didn't have to talk about Artemi anymore. Later that day at hockey Andrew asked me this, "Hey Cori, why can't you ever hangout with us after school? We're are you at all the time?" Do I have to tell Andrew? "Well, did you hear about Artemi? I've been with him after school." I said negatively. "Oh, well I should've known that. Didn't mean to mention 'him'. I do feel sorry though. I mean the kid was my friend too. I'm not gonna give you a lecture like Teuvo did, cause mines the same. Just so you know, after the lecture you gave me awhile back, when I had drama with Teuvo. He's been telling me everything now, and I'm telling him everything. I also don't talk about Courtney all the time anymore, it's more about life. So, thank you, and yes I'm sorry about Artemi." He said patting my shoulder, and skating away. "Thanks, good luck with your graduation speech." He looked back and waved. It's good to hear Andrew & Teuvo are best friends again. Not that they weren't before. I haven't talked to Andrew in awhile now that I'm thinking about it. Huh, good thing we had a conversation. Andrew was going to have to say a speech at the graduation since he was one of the smartest kids in the grade level. Were not really kids now. We're more adults instead. After school later that day, I went to see Artemi. I brought my homework to do while being with him. When I walked inside the hospital, Anisimov was pacing the waiting room. "Cori! You won't believe what happened!" He exclaimed. "What! What happened! Tell me!" I said eagerly back. "Ok well, uh. Promise to not make a scene, cause you're gonna cry. Well, Artmei stopped breathing in his sleep just a few minutes ago, and since this is the second time happening, the doctors aren't sure if Artemi will live. You can't see him right now, they're fixing him up." Anisimov said holding my shoulders so that I wouldn't run to Artemi's room. "What...no, this can't be..." I said then started crying, again. Go ahead call me a crybaby, but if you were in my situation you would be feeling the same for your love. We stood in the waiting room hugging basically. I cried in Anisimov's arms for a solid 7min. Then speed walked to the room Artemi was in. When I got there, he was sitting in the bed like an innocent little boy. I slowly walked to the chair I always sit in, next to 'him'. Artemi's face looked so pale like it was white as snow. He had lightly faded dark circles under his eyes. And when he woke up to see me, the color of his eyes were crystal blue. He looked sick. I just sat, and looked at Artemi with his hand in mine, close to my face. "I still here, but cry little, of what happen." He said rubbing my hand. "Don't leave me again." I said lightly crying, again. "I won't. Promise." He said kissing my hand. I will remember those exact words. He will not leave again. "Go to prom?" Artemi asked out of no where. "What if you can't?" I said sitting up. He couldn't explain why, so Anisimov had to translate. "He says, 'Just incase I'm able to go, I don't want you going on your own. And so I also know that you're going with me, and not with some other idiot.' " That made me smile, and blush. "Of course, why wouldn't I go with you. Artemi Panarin." He smiled wide when he heard me say his name. He must be proud. I'm happy to be the girl he likes. I don't think any other girl would deal with Artemi, they wouldn't have the patience. Yet I don't like having to translate, but I do still love him. After our moment, I started doing my homework. Anisimov helped me with my homework, while Artemi took a nap. While we were solving the math problem, the machine that kept track of Artemi's heart went from normal to...absolute zero. "Oh my god Anisimov!" I cried. He looked up quickly, and I said,"Hurry call the front desk!" I said in shock. While he was calling the front desk I went up to Artemi, and started doing the regular CPR. I wasn't CPR certified, but it was all we could do now. "I called the front desk, they're sending a doctor now." He said in shock. I started crying again, as I still try to bring Artemi back. "Please God!" I yelled. Then the doctor rushed in, and pushed me out the way to use the electrify thing on 'his' heart. I stood back, and cried. The nurse was pushing Anisimov an I out the door. "No, no, no, please I need to be in there!" I cried at the nurse. Anisimov was pulling me out the door, but I refused. "Please ma'm after we are done we will let you in." She said trying to calm me down. I still fought through the doorway, yet I didn't win. The nurse shut the door on me. "What the frick!" I yelled. I just cried in Anisimov's arms, again. After 10min of crying, we sat down in the chairs in the hallway. "His parents will be pissed at me." Anisimov said looking down. "Why should they? It's not your fault. If they are pissed at you, then they should try the situation we were just in." I said looking confused at him. "I know but, I was there when it happened. I shouldn't of let it happen. I know sounds really stupid, and full of crap, but watch they'll be mad at me." He said full of thought. "No. They won't. I won't let them. I was in the moment too. They can yell at me. Just because you're his guardian, doesn't mean it was all you." I said assuring him. Anisimov didn't look at all sad anymore, but a little mad. Later the doctor came out. "Uh, sir and ma'm. I don't really want to say this, but first where are Mr. Panarin's parents?" The doctor said. "They're at home." Anisimov said looking annoyed. "Oh, I'll just tell you two then. With the problems Mr. Panarin is having are very unusual. You might notice that yourselves he uh, he might die from this illness. His problems, like not breathing, may occur a lot often, and what if none of us are here for him. Then he'll die. I suggest that we, I really don't want to say this but, end it for him. I hope you know what I mean by that. I am very sorry, there is just no cure for Mr. Panarin." Anisimov got up knocked over a chair, and paced in front of me, with anger. I was to in shock to do anything. So a lonely tear ran down my face. "Do you mean...death?" I asked still in shock. "Yes...ma'm." The doctor answered. "Oh, ok, I see how it is. So you're just gonna kill someone. No no no, if you saved him twice already, and if Artemi's living off the medication, then he can live. He promised me he would. You can't let him go. Not Artemi Panarin. Kill me instead. What day?" I said to the doctor. By now Anisimov was lightly crying, and sitting in the chair next to me. "On the 26th ma'm, and it's the only thing we can do for your boyfriend ma'm." "He's not my boyfriend. Just a close best friend of mine, sir." I looked at Anisimov he was still crying lightly. We both got up, and went to see Artemi. I went back to the same chair, and held Artemi's hand. "I would die for you..." I whisper sang in Artemi's ear. I know he knew the next line to the famous Prince song. "Darling if you want me to..." Artemi whisper sang back. I didn't think he would sing it back. He waved goodbye, and I left. I didn't want to leave Artemi. I didn't want him to leave me next Thursday. It was Thursday already, in 7days my love will die. Artemi will say his last word to me. That night I went home, and cried myself to sleep. Trying not to think of next Thursday.
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I woke up Wednesday, got ready for school, and left. I didn't tell anyone about Artemi. I couldn't face talking about him. This is not like the movies at all. 'His' world is ending, and mine is starting to end. Artemi never will get the chance to ask me out, ever. He won't ever even go to prom with me. I'm not going to school tomorrow. I won't allow myself. I'll tell my mom everything today. She'll understand what I'm feeling. I guess you can call my scenario a love story, but where's the happy ending? Do I get my love and my life, or do I just get life. Huh...can I get fries with that? Can't I get both? Can it be a like a movie? I don't want to live with the pain of knowing I was in the presents of my best friends death. That'll be wearing pain like a heavy coat. I'll probably die with that guilt. And I know I'm not the reason. Artemi is leaving because of his illness. So throughout Wednesday I was a lump that was just there. It went by fast, which was sort of good. The next day I woke up, and went straight to the hospital. I told my mom the night before about Artemi, and like I said, she felt sorry. So she let me go. When I got there I was able to go straight to Artemi's room. When I got there his family was there. They took up the whole room, basically. I stood by Anisimov, "He's leaving at 2:00, so be ready." Anisimov said looking the other way, away from everyone, looking out the window. "They won't be here to see his final breath. They'll be to sad. But I'll stay with you." Anisimov added to what he said before. "Be ready for more of my tears. I didn't tell anyone. I didn't want to talk about this." I answered. "Good. I don't want anymore people coming to say sorry. They'll find out on there own, tomorrow." Anisimov said. Soon hrs later, Anisimov, Artemi, and I were the only ones in the room. I looked at Artemi, he smiled, "Hie. Will you be my girlfriend?" Artemi asked out of the blue. He's good at asking random questions at times like this. "Of course I will. Artemi Panarin." He smiled wide, and blushed. Does he have to go? I'll miss him to much. Soon enough the time came, 2:00. No. The doctor came in with two nurses. "Alright, sir and ma'm you must leave at this time." The doctor said. "No no no! Please don't do this!" I cried. "You can't. He's still alive." I said basically crying now. "C'mon Cori, let's go before they kick us out." Anisimov said pulling me quickly out the door. "No please let me stay! I promise to stay back, I just want to see his face one last time!" I cried. But it was to late. They shut the door on me again. "No! Don't! Stop!" I yelled banging on the door. Anisimov grabbed me away, and hugged me. I just cried. That's the only thing I was good at by now. I noticed Anisimov was crying as well. I just lost my boyfriend, my brother, my best friend. Whatever I call Artemi, I never will again. "Why God? Why?" I said under my breath and tears. I was still wearing Artemi's sweater, and I'll keep it forever. We sat in the hallway chairs for about 15min when the doctor came out. "Alright, there has been a change of plans. I hope you are ok with these plans." The doctors said stepping out of the doorway. You'll never believe who stepped out. Yes. You probably guessed right. A boy wearing a Blackhawks shirt, and a pair of jeans stepped out the doorway. Artemi. He was alive? "Oh my god...Artemi...is that you?" I said in shock. "I'm still here. I never leave." He answered back. It was him. A sigh of relief on me lifted. I stepped in front of him. He looked down at me, and hugged me. To feel his arms around me made me the most happiest girl in the world. I don't need money, I don't need fame, I just needed 'him'. And only 'him'. "Love you." Artemi whispered in my ear. "And I love you." I whispered back to Artemi. If he was just a friend I wouldn't have cared this much. "I double checked Mr.Panarin, and found that he was cured. I don't know how, but he's better now." The doctor said. "Thank you for double checking." I said back. "Well since you and your friend loved the boy so much, I wanted to make sure of myself. You guys are able to go home now. Bye." The doctor said and waved goodbye. That's nice he noticed that Anisimov an I really cared about Artemi. That day I was able to walk hand-in-hand with Artemi out of the hospital. Life is now back to normal. Before I got in my car, Artemi kissed my cheek and said 'bye'. Can't wait to go to prom with 'him'. If I should even call Artemi 'him' anymore.
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I already had the perfect dress to wear to prom. Yes, it's was Friday, and yes I will be able to go to prom now. I told Emalee and Kayla everything that happened at the hospital. "Wow, you're lucky he was better." Kayla said. "I wish you could of told us earlier. But I understand that it was a sad important day." Emalee said. I figured she would tell Tyler later. Not unless he already knew. Everything went smoothly today, and of course everyone asked where I was yesterday, so I told them all why. They all understood why I was gone. But did they really feel the same coat of pain? Or they did, but just won't say they were? I don't think anyone felt the same pain that I had. Not when it was your boyfriend dying. I'm thankful to God that Artemi lived. The love I have for Artemi is huge, I just didn't show it before, or after his sickness. I'm gonna skip to prom now. So I wore a pink dress that went from my shoulders to my feet. It was a really cute dress, but not as cute as Artemi in his suit an tie. He came to pick me up for prom. The tie was red, and the rest was black and white. Of course my mom wanted a picture of Artemi and I together. He didn't mind, nor did I. After 2-3 pictures we were able to leave. "You look pretty." Artemi said while we on our way to prom. "Aw, thanks. And you look very cute." I said back. That was sweet of Artemi to say. When we got there we met Emalee & Tyler by the entrance. Emalee was wearing a pretty blue dress, and Tyler was wearing a suit with a green tie. "You guys look so cute." Emalee said. "So do you." I said responding to what Emalee said. The whole dance was in the gym. It would take me forever just to find Kayla. So instead I waited for her to find me. She was wearing a white dress, and Caden was wearing a regular black an white suit an tie. They still looked very cute together as well. I couldn't wait for the slow dance to come. I wanted to dance with you know who. Andrew was with Courtney, and she was wearing a black dress, and he was wearing a nice white flannel with a black tie an black pants. They looked very casual. Teuvo didn't go with anyone, but he was there in the moment. "Alright, ladies and gentlemen, our slow song is about to play, and I want all our cute couples dancing." The dj said that was playing the music. Great. I couldn't find Artemi anywhere. I was to busy talking to Teuvo and Kayla, that I lost Artemi. Soon enough the song "Purple Rain" started playing. One of my favorite slow songs. I have to find Artemi. Then I ran into someone, and when just about yelled at the person I realized it was Artemi. "Your song, dance?" He asked me. He held out his hand, and I took it. I saw in the corner of my eye Emalee & Tyler were dancing. She looked so happily looking into Tyler's eyes. I just stared into Artemi's eyes. It was about an 8min song, but when you dance to it, it feels like 4min. I saw in the corner of my eye, Teuvo was sitting on the bleachers waving at us. I couldn't wave back, but I saw him. After the song was over that meant prom was over. I didn't tell you everything that happen in the 2hrs, but oh well. After we left we went to Taco Bell with Emalee & Tyler. I know right Taco Bell, like that's totally a nice place to eat at. Kayla went with Caden to a different place to eat. I wish she could have went with us. Anisimov wasn't with Artemi, he didn't come at all. Artemi didn't need help with any translating, which was good. After we ate I said 'bye' to Emalee & Tyler, and Artemi drove me home. I stepped out the car door, and stood in the driveway.  Just like Courtney's party. Artemi came up to me, and kissed me. It lasted about a minute, and then he looked down at me, and said, "Had fun right? See you later, my Cori." I felt warm inside, and said, "Yes I had fun, and goodbye, my Artemi." It was such a beautiful dance, and night. I know I will never forget.
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Alright, so today I graduate high school. Yes it's the last day, and I don't really wanna graduate. I'm not entirely ready for college. I won't get to see all my friends there, especially Artemi. My school year was crazy, yet the best senior year any girl could have. Sure yeah my boyfriend almost died, but besides that it was wonderful. It's a good thing we get summer. To bad most of my friends will be going on vacation. I know I won't be. So, later that day we had our graduation ceremony. We all wore black robes, and black graduation hats. Luckily I didn't have to speak for the grade level. Instead Andrew had to. "Oh my god. I can't believe we're graduating." Teuvo said in astonishment. "I know, crazy right!" I said trying to sound excited. "You think Andrew will mess up on his speech?" Teuvo said looking at the stage. "Nah, I think he'll do great." I said being honest. "Well, he told me he was nervous, but I have a feeling he'll do great as well." Teuvo said looking at Andrew on the stage, and waving. Now I'm not gonna tell you his whole speech. In just gonna say he did, fabulous! He didn't mess up one bit. "Hie! Good job! Your speech was so good!" I exclaimed to Andrew. "Hey! Thanks, I didn't think it was that great, but if you thought it was." He responded. Then Courtney & Teuvo came to talk to Andrew. So I decided to go find Artemi. Surprisingly he wasn't with me during the ceremony. I saw him standing in the back of the students, with Anisimov. Tyler just got done talking to them, cause when I showed up Tyler was waving 'goodbye'. Well, at least they weren't exactly alone. "Hie! Crazy right!" I said sounding happy, and excited. "Meh. I don't wanna go back Russia." Artemi said reaching for my hand. "Wait. You guys are leaving?" I said in complete shock. Anisimov rolled his eyes. "We're not leaving. We're going back to visit for vacation. Artemi said that wrong." Anisimov said eyeing Artemi. "Ohhhh!" Artemi said like he just realized something. "Sorry," he said looking at me. "Oh, ok, I was gonna say don't leave me." I said with a small laugh. "We were actually gonna ask if you could come with us. To Russia, like a vacation for you. We won't be leaving in like 2-3 weeks, but just incase you can come." Anisimov said. I thought for a minute. "Well, I would have to ask my parents of course, and I would have to buy a plane ticket, an I'm not sure it would be alright with Artemi's parents." I answered. "No, it's alright. We planned on asking you a while ago, and we talked to Artemi's parents about inviting you. They're ok with it. As long as your parents are ok with you coming." "Alright, I'll ask." I said starting into Artemi's eyes. He has such pretty blue eyes. Anyway, later that day I had a party at my house, and I invited the boys, an the girls at lunch. I never thought my school year would be so amazing, yet heart breaking at times. Emalee & Kayla ended up being my best friends after all. Including 4 of the boys on the hockey team, and Courtney. I'll never forget those best friends. I hope they all have the life's they dreamed of. My party was probably better than the other ones this school year. Everyone knew each other. I saw Emalee look at me and wink 'thank you'. She was with Tyler, Jamie, and Kayla. I knew what she meant by that, so I smiled back 'your welcome'. And of course Artemi was standing in the driveway, away from the party. I knew he was there, I saw him walk out. So I decided to go outside. "Hie." He said when I walked up beside him. "Why you all alone? You know everyone inside." I asked and said. "I no like parties. I came to see you." He said looking at me. Wait, did he only go to those parties cause I was at them? Huh...I wonder. "Here, I brought something with me." I said showing out pair of cat ears I was hiding behind my back. "Oh my god." I heard him say under his breath, as Artemi looked away with his eyes closed, and a wide smile. I laughed, and put the headband on his head. Artemi put his hand over his mouth, and looked down. "Oh my god! You look so cute!" I said with joy and laughter. Artemi looked up at me and said, "Meow, I cat." Then laughed.  Then he stopped laughing, and I slowly ended laughing. He looked me in the eyes, as I smiled wide with confusion behind my face. Then he pulled me in for a kiss. I like how Artemi is so random, like this. Our moment lasted about 20 seconds then it ended. "Party over?" He asked looking at the time on his phone. "Oh! Yeah! Well, thanks for coming." I smiled while blushing. "Meh. Had to see you." Artemi answered. So I walked back inside, and told everyone the party was over. "Thank you everyone!" I said as I held the door open for everyone. "Bye friend!" Teuvo said. "Bye best friend!" Kayla said after Teuvo. "Bye, see you another day." Emalee said hugging me 'goodbye'. "Bye guys!" I called after them. "Alright, bye Artemi." He stood on the driveway. "Bye." He said hugging me. Later I would ask my parents if I could go to Russia. But besides all of that I had, and I mean I had the best school year ever. I'll miss everyone that I met. I just hope to see them all again.