Jace and Clary: This love

chapter 13

Clarys POV

Everyone is a little freaked out about what they found out. I am freaked out. Why can't things just be okay. Just when things get okay something has to come up and ruin it. Will we ever be able to just live. we will always be trying to survive. It seems like we are always in a war. Things with me and jace were perfect,we were happy and didn't really have to worry about anything. just when I let myself be happy for a moment the world comes crashing down, but can I handle it this ti- "clary" it was jace he is looking at me worried " I called your name a few times..are you okay" I just nod because I feel if I talk then the string I have keeping me grounded will break.

I feel arms wrap around me, I scoot in and lay in jaces lap with my head on his chest, I sigh "its okay to not be okay clary" I hear jace say. He puts his head on my head "you don't have to stay strong for anyone, it's okay to want things to be simple and like they were before, I want that too, but that is the thing about living this life I don't think things will get to be like that..to be simple and to not have to worry about anything"

gosh jace just knows me so well he knew what I was thinking and knew exactly what to say I look up at him "thank you for..just being you..you always know exactly what to say..i am just afraid that if someone leaves the institute that they won't make it back..i mean magnus he is gone and we have no idea what to do or how to save him-" my voice crack and I can feel tears threaten to spill. Jace kisses my head "we are going to figure it out we always do and we will get magnus back okay I promise i will do everything I can to make sure everyone is safe" "at the cost of your own safety no way jace I am not going to let you try to protect everyone and put your own life at risk" he just kisses my head "get some sleep okay..i am going to try to figure out what the rest of the note says okay" he gets up and I watch him walk away to the table with the note on it, I close my eyes and feel myself slowly be drawn to sleep

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I stir in my sleep I slowly open my eyes and see that everyone is asleep ,but why would the light still be on I look over and see jace still at the table and in the corner of my eye I see it's 3:30am I slowly get up not wanting to, but doing so anyways. i walk over to jace and see what he is so into doing I put my hand on his shoulder and he flinches and tenses. I am shocked because jace doesn't flinch he sees that it is me he untenses and smiles "jace it's late come to bed" he looks at the time and sees that it is 3:32am and sighs "I will in a bit okay give me a minute" I sigh and say okay because I am to tired to argue I lay down and watch him while I wait for him to come to bed ,but sleep pulls me in and I am out once again.

Jace's POV

Clary lies back down, the note is in demonic writing Valentine taught me it when I was younger i know for sure that it's says Jonathan in the beginning so I know that the letter is addressed to me that means he wants something from me ,and I have a feeling I know what it is ,but I won't allow it he won't have it, I wont let him hurt people with it like he did me I won't let him put people through the pain he put me through I just won't.