My heat ended a day later, right on time, but my time of bleeding never came. I don't tell Nox that I think I'm expecting. I don't want him to treat me with affection because of the life growing inside of me, but I know he will start to smell the change in me.
It's been a week since then and he's making an effort to get to know me. We haven't kissed anymore after that night, but he introduced me to his sister today. Her name is Teagan and I've meal prepped with her multiple times. I feel ashamed to not have seen the resemblance, but then she never acted like she wanted to know me. She's actually been pretty aloof towards me.
"Want to go to the river?" Teagan is my age, which is four years younger than her brother who is 24. I've gotten to know these small facts about him.
"What's at the river?" I knew she wasn't asking me, but I want to be included in their family. I want to be apart of his life, to be more than just a mate.
She gives me a dirty side glance. She hasn't seen her brother, hasn't spent time with him, because of me.
"We Just love to swim. It's a place we've gone to since we were small ." Nox seems sad as he says this, so I let them go, complaining of a stomach ache.
It takes all of my no longer hidden strength to keep myself from following them. I busy myself, helping Rose and Senna think of baby names.
"I like Danica for a girl," Rose is rubbing her belly with love and affection. "Then I will have Evie, Levi and Dani"
"What about if it's another boy?" Senna is asking.
"Well, we're pretty sure it's a girl. Girls run in Cole's family. We were actually pretty surprised to have Levi." She's laughing, her smile wide.
"I'm thinking of Lilian for a girl." I blurt out and they both look at me. I'm not sure if they are surprised at the news or my name choice, but I find out it's for a whole new reason.
Nox is standing in the doorway, a bouquet of freshly picked wildflowers in his hand. He had obviously meant to give them to me, but now he's confused and unsure. He won't let me inside his mind and I feel like a miserable fool. I know my words have hurt him in so many ways. I stand to walk towards him and he starts to recover from his momentary shock.
"Your with child?" It's a whisper, and I feel the women quietly leave the room.
"I... I'm not too sure yet, but I think so." I didn't want to tell him like this. I wanted him to be happy. I wanted to keep it a secret for just me, if only for a few more days.
He surprises me by handing me the flowers. "I got these for you. Are you feeling well? You mentioned a stomach ache earlier?" He's concerned now and I feel like the worst mate.
"I'm okay. I just wanted to give you and your sister some alone time. I made up the stomach ache." I almost feel like crying.
Werewolf pregnancies tend to progress faster than a normal human's would, but it's only been a little over a week. I won't start showing symptoms for another week at least.
"Why didn't you tell me?" He's asking this and I want to swallow myself whole.
"I wanted to be sure first." I'm not telling the whole truth and I can feel him digging into my mind. I don't have the strength to block him out, but I try my best to hide the reason I picked the name Lilian. I wanted to see if I could get a reaction out of anyone, to see if anyone knows why he calls her name in his sleep.
It's always either Lilly or Lillian, never little bird or Wren or even Wrenley.
"You think I would only start to care for you because of the pup?" He's asking me more questions, questions I don't want to answer.
"I didn't want any progress in our relationship to be because of the pup... You may have wanted to start over with me, but I still remember the many times you told me the only thing I'm good for." I don't mean to turn this back on him, but I'm scared. I don't want him to be angry at me again.
I'm starting to break the stems of these beautiful flowers and I can't seem to look him in his Mercury eyes.
"I understand what you mean, little bird, but I promised to try and I will." He doesn't say another would as he stalks out of the room and into the woods again.
I try not to cry, but I can feel the salty taste of my tears against my lips. I can feel his pain. He might not have brought it up, but I should never have said that name.
The women don't come back and I try to find a vase to deposit the flowers. I want to keep them alive for as long as I can. I don't want him to think I don't appreciate his gesture, his effort, and when they're dead I will dry them out and place them in the silver box that is now home to our ribbon.
I'm not having any luck and I notice Evie and Levi laughing and chasing one another through the kitchen. "Is there something I could put these in?" I'm holding out these flowers like I'm afraid they might disappear.
"There's a really pretty vase in the dining room Luna. We can show you it!" She's excited to help me.
It's small and has a crystalline blue tint to it, but it will do. I thank Evie and start the task of arranging these flowers. I notice that a majority of them are iris' and I don't want to read to much into it, but I know that they mean hope.
Does he hope that we can become more to each other like I do? Does he hope that we can get along as Luna and Alpha? Or did he hope that I would soon be with child? Now I feel even worse for keeping my suspensions from him.
I place the vase in the center of the dining table for everyone to see before I decide to search for him.
I didn't want to invade his privacy, but as I follow his scent toward the river I start to feel anxious. I know his sister isn't with him this time and when I finally make it to the end of the trail, I can tell that he's been gone for a while now. I look around at this beautiful haven, more a little spring then a river. The water is bubbling joyfully, but there's a sadness here. It's embedded in the soil and I notice why a few moments later.
There, right in front of a decrepit looking tree lay a bouquet of pure white lilies and above them were the names, carved inside a lopsided heart.
Lillian Alice Carter
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Lennox Sebastian Blackwood
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Arranged Bonds
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