Nox is furious with me and I'm a failure.
I failed to bring back his brother. I failed to tell him of my unexpected shopping trip. I let him blame me. This isn't Senna's fault. This isn't Quinn's fault. They were only going along with their Luna.
He's gripping his hair. Pacing our bedroom from the windows to the door. I'm sitting on the bed, wrapped up in our covers, letting the tears fall like leaves from a tree in the fall.
He's not saying anything and the silence is deafening. It's worse than anything his words could say to me right now.
He leaves. I'm not sure where to, but he doesn't come back to bed that night. The wedge is now between us again.
I sleep fitfully and my eyes are red rimmed this morning. I see Nox in the kitchen, but he ignores me. He's still angry.
I want to apologize, but he's avoiding me now. I don't want this small distance between us to grow into a cavern. He was only just letting me in and I don't want to backtrack from that.
I find Griffen on my search. "Do you know where Nox is?" My voice is cracking and I rub my hands nervously over my small bump.
He looks up to the sky, another avoider. "He's training right now. Not to be disturbed." He winces as he says this, not wanting to intentionally hurt his Luna.
I mumble an affirmation of some sort, walk away. I'm roaming now. Alone, wandering the premises of our grand territory. My wolf is itching in my skin, but I can't shift, the ability dormant in a pregnant wolf. My sandals don't support my feet well, giving me blisters, but I continue until I reach the outskirts of the river.
I'm about to emerge from the thick foliage when I hear a cry. I freeze. It sounds so painful, full of hurt. I peek around the nearest tree, looking towards the willow, the one Lilly is buried beside.
Beatrix. Her hands bloodied. Her hair matted to her cheeks. She's crying beside the grave, letting her tears fall relentlessly.
I can't move and my eyes widen when I notice someone with her. A man. Not of this pack. He's naked and her bottoms are gone. She looks like she's been raped.
I can't protect her. I have to protect the lives inside me. I try to mind link Nox, it he's blocked me out. Tears of sympathy are leaking from my eyes.
Questions are swirling around in my brain. Where are our warriors? How did this make get in? Or did she sneak him in?
I try Griffen next. No answer. Finally I try Quinn. He's quick to answer.
Don't move, don't make a sound. I'm on my way. I sent Cole for Nox.
I'm hiding behind this narrow tree. I'm listening as Beatrix continues to let her sorrows be known. Why didn't she try to contact the pack? Why didn't she call for help? More unanswered questions.
"Is this what you wanted Trixy?" The harsh snarl startles me, my breath hitches. "You wanted to be beaten black and blue all over. That's what you said isn't it? I figured I might as well beat your pussy black and blue as well." His laugh is grading my ears. This man is despicable.
"Just leave." Two words spoken from a voice beyond recognition.
"Leave? You asked for this! Don't try to act like the damsel in distress now! You've asked me to fight you, to beat you now for weeks! For a few months now really!" He doesn't get to finish, because Nox is on him and Quinn is ushering me away from the crime scene, shading my eyes, my eyes that are weeping silently.
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I'm in bed now. Rose is on bed rest, so Senna is with me. I haven't heard from Nox yet. I suppose he's still angry with me.
I want my mate with me so badly. I want to feel his essence overlap into mine. I want to ask for his forgiveness.
"Why won't he come? I know he's mad at me. I know I shouldn't have tried, but I wanted to ring back Huxley for him. I wanted to help him heal." The tears just won't stop. My body feels heavy, I'm tired, I'm hungry and my emotions are all over the place.
Senna has wide eyes. "That's what you were doing?" This is obviously news to her, but I don't care. I need to poor my heart out to someone, since my mate won't listen to me.
"I just wanted to help." I'm whispering this. My back is towards her, my face meshed against the pillows. My shoulders are shaking and I'm wrapped up tight in our comforter.
I don't hear anything for a while and I start to think that she is angry at me now too until I feel a hand slowly start to rub my back. At first I think it's Senna, but when that same hands touches the skin of my neck I know differently.
Nox. He's calmed down considerably. I can feel that, but he's conflicted. The bed dips as he scoots in behind me, pulling me into his chilly arms. There's scratches on his knuckles. I run my fingers over them lightly.
"I'm sorry." I choke out.
His face burrows into the crook of my neck, kissing his mark. Pleasure starts to makes it's way into my exhausted body, awakening it even at a time like this. He always affects me this way.
"Little bird, you really like to disobey me. I specifically told you not to go searching for him." His breathes this onto the top of my head before turning me in his arms, lying me on my back now. "I forgive you, because I know you meant well, but you will be punished." His silver eyes are glaring into mine and I gulp. He looks maddening and I wander what happened to Beatrix, if she's alright. Nox doesn't answer my minds question and I don't voice it.
"No more tears." He wipes my cheeks with his hands, runs them over my stomach, pulls the blankets off his one yank. I'm on my knees. We haven't been physical with each other in a while and if that's my punishment I will gladly take it in any form he pleases.
His hands are running down my spine and I'm groaning. They reach under my belly caressing our pups possessively; a proud parent.
He continues his perusal slowly until my underwear and cotton dress are gone and his teeth are nipping my neck. He's gripping my hips, my swollen belly hanging with my swollen breasts. He reaches around, grabs a sensitive nipple and I scream out at the overload of pain. Tears leak out. "I'm sorry. Are they sensitive, little bird?" He's kissing my cheek and before I know it I feel a slap to my bare bottom. I'm too surprised to react as he rubs the sting out of my butt cheek.
"That's one. Nine more to go little bird." He's slapping my right cheek now and my Yelp turns into mewls as he rubs the sting out again. He continues to rub a bit lower when my mewls fade away. I cry out as his hand glides between my folds, his naked chest against my back. I'm gushing at how overwhelming this pleasure is. He's been rough with me before, and I admit I like it, but he's never spanked me.
My cries become louder as, on the next swift smack, he thrusts his length into my heat. He's on his seventh smack when I cum in a wave of pleasure so great that tears are falling down my cheeks. Nox is filling me up with his seed as I twitch and groan beneath him.
He's kissing my cheek afterwards. I'm resting against his chest. Cuddled up for the night.
"I though I said no more tears, little bird. Do I need to start calling you...." I'm falling asleep before I hear the rest, content and all cried out.
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Arranged Bonds
Kurt Adam(Book 1) Blackwood. The name of Wrenley Nightingale's new mate. Her pack is in desperate need of trainers, of warriors. She is their sacrifice. She is given so that the pack may receive security once again. No one told her that he wouldn't treat...
