Arranged Bonds

Bonus Chapter 9:

Chapter 14

Nox's POV

Some of the pack is waiting on the back porch when we make it back. They are smiling and happy for their leaders, for us. They are congratulating us on our gift from the goddess.

Senna is squeezing Wren's hand. Griffen and Cole give me a pat on the back each. Griffen's been waiting on this. He knows how good my female is. He knew I would come to care for her.

My smile is so wide my cheeks are getting sore and I immediately walk towards the fridge for a beer. I don't drink much, but this calls for a celebration. I will have to get the women to plan the party as a surprise.

I smile at my little bird as I turn to see her. I'm intoxicated with the way I'm feeling and before I know it I have her trapped against the counter, nowhere to fly as I let my lips touch hers. She responds in kind, her tongue reaching out to taste me, moaning and sucking on my bottom lip, getting a taste of the beer.

Her hands are in my hair, pulling me closer, demanding me to kiss her with a deeper touch. My tongue meets hers and I let my beer clatter to the counter so I can reach around and caress her belly, our babies.

We're smiling and I can feel how happy she is, anyone could.

I pull away to kiss her cheek gently, whispering my words of thanks to her, making sure she knows how grateful I am.

She presses her head to my chest, leaning in to me, pressing her body against mine in her giddiness.

I'm so happy for you.

I hear Lily's voice in my ear, giving me her blessing and it makes me sad, but it also gives me even more joy to know that she likes this woman that fate has brought to me.

I lean down. I press my lips to her mark, to my mark. I wish I had given it to her in better circumstances. I wish we could have started this off on the right foot, but I can only be happy for what we have now.

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I let my Luna tend to things with the women while I check the border of the pack, securing that it's safe, no breeches.

Our land is a lot bigger than you would think, so it takes me a while and I'm starting to worry about Wren.

"Go check of the ladies." I ask this of Griffen, more like order this of him.

"Yes Alpha." He leaves and I continue on to check a few more paths, sniffing in my wolf form for any hidden scents.

I'm satisfied when I find no outsider scents invade my nose, but I go around once more, checking and sniffing. The pregnancy has put an affect on my wolf as well. I want to protect even more now.

I'm almost home when I feel a sudden urge to see my mate, an urge to comfort her.

Alpha, Wrenley is upset. I think you should come back. I will continue to check the borders on my own. Don't worry about the training session either. Cole can lead it.

Griffen sounds panicked and I race to be house, making it there in record time.

"But he won't even let me in his mind! He always shits me out!" It hurts me deeply to hear the words that leave my little birds mouth. It hurts even more when I walk in to see the tears running down her face.

I take action.

In no time she's in my arms, crying her little heart out on my chest as I carry her to our room.

(A/N: I really want popcorn right now. I'm sitting hear trying to write and all I keep thinking about is popcorn so sorry if this sucks 😂)

I walk is to our couch and sit with her still in my arms, laying her out across my lap, her face and hands pressed into the collar of my shirt.

"What's the matter Wrenley?"

She won't talk to me, so I let my hands run over her hair, down her back, around her stomachs in continuous motions as I let my mind merge into hers.

She thinks I'm upset about the babies and it cuts deep. I didn't do this to her on purpose. I was going to make it a surprise.

"Little bird, please don't be upset with me. I don't want you to feel like I'm upset about the babies." She still won't talk, but she lets me roam her thoughts more freely to get her answers.

She tells me about her insecurities, about how she feels like I can't open up to her, and it's true. I feel awful for making her feel this way. I fee absolutely disposable for making her cry, for making her feel like she can't tell me anything, can't ask me anything.

I think for a few moments before deciding it's time to let her know at least one secret.

"I've been searching for my twin." I let that sink in.

"It's my fault he's gone..." I'm finding it hard to explain these truths to her. "Beatrix... He was in love with her and I knew that, but I was going through a hard time. I hurt him deeply." My soul clenches as I tell her these things, but I know I can't keep  holding back with her or we will never be able to move forward.

"I know I haven't told you anything about Lillian, but I didn't want to hurt you." I know that's only have true. I didn't want to hurt me either, like I hurt now.

"She was human... And we were in love. Everyone knew and advised against it. I should have listened. I should have stayed away from her." If I did, she wouldn't be dead. If I did, she would be happy and alive.

My little bird rests her cheek against my heart, trying to give me strength.

I tell her about the twins we were going to have, about the way it was too much for a human's body to handle.

"I lost them all in two days."

My shoulders are shaking and my tears start to come now. She wraps me up in the sweetness that is her and let's me cry. She even joins in, sharing in my pain, telling me I don't have to explain any further. 

But I want to tell her. I want her to know it all. I don't want this to come back and bite us later on.

I tell her how I slept with Trixy, how I took comfort in her body in my grief and drunken state. I tell her how he left because I betrayed him, because Trixy betrayed him even though she was out of her mind drink at the time.

We all hurt each other in the most painful ways.

"What's his name?" Her only question.

I pause for a moment, not sure if I want to voice it, but I do.

"Huxley."