If I...

~<«Chapter 7»>~

Hesitantly, I pulled the door handle. Last one.

I ended up on the bridge.

Flashback:
Millions of voices in my head said Jump. But I hesitated. If I will jump I will die, but if you think - isn't my life worse. How much harder can it get? I got ready to jump, but something stopped me. Someone stopped me. Roxy.

I looked around and saw my twin sister Roxy. She died 2 months ago. She ran to me and gave me a hug.

"It's that bridge, isn't it?" I asked her, looking around

She nodded her head.

"You didn't jump." She said looking at my eyes

"You know, sometimes, I think that I should have. It would've been easier."

"You have a whole life ahead of you. You are stronger than that. "

"I have nightmares all the time...." I looked her into eyes "They are about losing you all. I wake up at the middle of night and cry, while no one can see me. In the morning I have to put a smile on my face and move on, so no one would fire questions at me. Not many would see that it is fake, but what else can I do about it?"

"As you said yourself, you have to move on. You see, I can't come back even if I wanted to. I come back sometimes in your dreams. You know. But I am not sure if it makes anything any better because when you wake up you realize that I am gone. So you have to be strong."

"I try."

"Remember, I believe in you." As she said that she started fading away

"No! Come back! Roxy! "

I started shouting as hard as I could, but it was useless. I dropped on my knees and shouted one more time. Last time. Last time I see her.

"I miss you twinny..." I whispered into the air, but I didn't get response like I did last time

That was last goodbye.

I stood up from my knees. I wasn't in the hallway, but I couldn't see anything. Everything was dark. Suddenly my head started to hurt very bad. I fell down and a long cutting noise filled the air - BEEP.