Im so exited there is this camping trip and i am so exited for it. Im going to be the only grade 9 girl going though. So im going to be the youngest one going. Oh well this will be fun though. Speashaly because me and Travis are still fighting. We talked about it a couple of times but i dont know it's still kinda awkward and we're still not a lovey dobbie though. So maybe this camping trip with be good though. It will get me away from Travis and ill have fun with the girls for a couple of day and get my mind off of Travis. And i will also get away from Kristal. Me and Krsital have been fighting to. Oh well thats why she shouldnt have gotten in the middle of mine and Travis fight. Oh crap there Travis. We always have these awkward eye to eye thing. we will stand at the end of the hall and stair at each other. God i miss him so god damn much. I just wish i can walk up to him and kiss him and hug him. But that wont help he will still be pissed. I just need to get my mind off of him and just let lose. Who knows maybe this time away from each other will be good for us.
DURING THE NIGHT
I was just on facebook talking to my best friend brooke. We were just talking about Travis and how it might be good for me to get away for a couple of day and that the camping trip would be good for me. But then i got a message from Travis. ''So i heard your going on the camping trip how long will you be gone???''. why is he asking me this? is he finally ready to talk to me now? ''yeah i am i just want to get away for a couple of days and i kinda need it since we been fighting a lot and i dont really know where we stand''. ''Oh well thats cool and i dont know where we stand either i dont want it to be done but i think it just might be i cant look at you the same as i did so maybe we should just brake up''. ''I knew this was coming i just didnt want it to come''. ''Well maybe if you didnt make a tbh for Zack who knows maybe we would still be together''. ''It was just a tbh Travis get over it''. ''No im not going to get over it you know what.... what ever Chelsea im done we're done''. right when he said that it feels like my heart just feels like is just dropped and i feel like im going to be sick.
Im at school.... in first peirod. I been crying all morning. And all i want is to be with Travis. Im not even looking forward for the camping trip anymore. All i want is to be with Travis. I didnt think it will be this pain fool. The bells rings and Travis is looking at me. Its pretty bad though because i was just crying. wait can he tell i been crying, I hope not i dont want him to know i been crying. Oh crap he's coming up to me. Oh shit. ''Heey read this''. Travis said. He gave me a note and it said. (i didnt want to brake up with you, i love you your the only girl i have ever wanted and i dont want to lose you i just dont think it will work out between us if we are not going to talk to each other about it so im sorry and i will always love you no matter what) I gave Travis back his phone. He looks at me and says. ''What did you think about what i wrote''. ''i dont know''. ''can we just be friends''. ughhhh i was hoping he would just kiss me and hug me. ''Yeah i guess''. he turns around and started making jokes and he looks at me and smiles. and i just couldnt stand here. I ran down the hall, Travis just comes runing after me. ''Cheslea see i write you this note and your just going to walk away like that''. ''Thats the thing Travis i cant just be friends with you after everything we been though i cant do that its rather we're together or we're done''. ''Well what do you want''. ''i want you''. im honestly crying at this point. ''come here''. Travis says. I walked closer to Travis. Travis pulls me in a kisses me. ''I cant just be friends with you either and i cant lose you i love you to much''. He hugs me tighter. I pulled away. ''hey are you okay???''. Travis asks me. ''Yeah im just happy that i didnt lose you''. ''Me to''. ''I love you Chelsea Lynn Parker'',
