The Girl With the Scars

Chapter Thirty-Five

I spent a good fifteen minutes trying to convince Jay of the events that had taken place before he had approached me but if looks could determine, he would have sent me off to a mental facility in no time.

“It was him I swear! But when you called me I turned around for literally a second and he was gone” I rush out as Jay gives me a look of despair.

“You have to believe me!” I exclaim.

“Hailey I think we should go home yeah?” He says softly and I huff.

“I’m not going anywhere” I say walking away.

“JASON! JASOOON” I shout running all around the beach, it was starting to get late and the sun was setting but I was more than determined to find him. I wasn’t going to let him just slip out of my fingers again.

“Hailey come on” Jay urges trying to calm me down.

“I saw him! I just saw him; I’m not leaving without him Jay please just understand!” I say looking around frantically.

My heart was aching and stomach tightening as my eyes skewered for that now blonde head, I replayed what he said to me again and again.

“I love you and I’m sorry”

Then he was gone, but it hurt more now knowing I let him leave. I should have grabbed him and held him close once again; I shouldn’t have turned around when Jay called me.

I was driving myself crazy going over all the possibilities.

I saw Jay typing something into his phone and that’s when I made a run for it.

***

A few hours later I walked back to the area I had last seen Jay with my head hung low. I saw him sitting on the bench with his head in his hands while talking to someone on the phone.

“I don’t fucking know man! I turned around for a second and she was gone...no she’s going crazy man saying she saw Jason, she’s been through a lot S, I think she’s going mad” Jay says and I scoff walking away.

I found an empty place on the beach and laid down. The sun beamed upon my face, my gaze was locked onto the cloudless sky, a shining blue that could allow me feed off of its beauty and live forever. I tuned out the world as best as I could by blessing my ears with the calming, velvety voice of Ed Sheeran. But alas good things never do last for long.

“You want to tell me what’s going on in that crazy head of yours” I hear someone say.

“I’m not crazy” I whispered looking off into the distance.

Jake sighed taking my hand into his and making me face him.

"I know, but running off and scaring the hell out of everyone isn’t really helping your image” He jokes and I smile weakly.

“I thought I saw him...It looked so much like him and I guess I just wanted to believe it was him you know?” I say and he nods.

"I guess that's just how fucked up our minds can be sometimes" He says trying to reassure me and I bit back my tongue realizing it was of no use to try to explain what happened because they weren't going to believe me anyways. 

We talked for a little longer before he helped me up and walked me back to where his car was parked. My gaze was fixed on the ground so I failed to notice that Jay, Jack, Finn and Spencer were all standing only a few feet away from me.         

As soon as I lifted my head I could see the furious and intense looks from each one of them, making me want to drown in the sea next to me.

“Where the fuck were you?!!” Spencer shouted advancing towards me. He paused momentarily and looked down at my hand that was currently intertwined with Jake's. He glared standing taller then pulled me away from him.

I stood awkwardly as Spencer quite intensely stared down Jake and then finally his gaze was directed towards me. His jaw was tightened and his grip was harsh but his eyes were flashing with guilt and relief.

“Let go” I hissed and he looked at me confused and hurt. I could smell his heavy cologne mixed with his after shave, a scent so familiar that it made my stomach churn.

"Hail-"

“I’m sure you have someone waiting for you at home” I continued.

I released myself from him hold and walked away with a heavy heart.

I know what I have to do and staying away from him is key.

Jason was counting on me.