Love and Other Stupid Things (2016)

You Loved Me

You Loved Me

you loved me
but your love is like a book;
you only loved the parts
that made your heart flutter
but not the parts
where your tears made the pages
you only loved the chapters
where you saw me
as a protagonist
but not the chapters
where you saw me
as someone ordinary
you only loved the words
that tell you
i'm the perfect character
but not the words
that tell you
all of my fatal flaws
and once the book is over
and i am not
the cardboard cutout
romantic hero
you read about
but someone
real and imperfect
but willing
to give you my life,
you put me
back in the bookshelf
and made me hope,
you'd come back
and read me again
you only loved
the words and idea
of the relationship;
but not me,
never me.

you loved me
but your love is a photograph;
you only like
a few frames of me,
you only like the parts
where I look good and perfect
but not the candid shots
that shows you who I am.
you only like
the photos
that you can show the world
the photos
you can put on instagram
and the rest of me
would be
just a forgotten memory
you want to delete
you loved me
but you never loved me fully;
you only loved
the beautiful parts of me
and you despised
the parts that were ugly

you loved me
but you never loved me wholly,
you loved me
but you never loved me past
my imperfections
you loved me
but you wantto change the
parts of me that you think
aren't pretty

your loved me
but your love isn't real

you never loved me