Love and Other Stupid Things (2016)

To the Boy Who Will Fall in Love With Me

To the Boy Who Will Fall in Love With Me

To the boy who will fall in love with me,
I am not the person you think I am.
I will not reach for the stars,
nor paint your picture in the sky
You will not be my world,
nor my whole life.
I will not look at you
and think about us,
think about how great it would be
to be with you.
I will not read the stories that your eyes tell me
I will not count how many times you tell me you love me.
I will not look at you and think
that we'd be together forever.

To the boy who will fall in love with me,
You need to know that I am a very unhappy person
and never will you become my happiness.
The constant darkness is my friend,
and never will I consider you as my light.
The voices inside my head is music
and your words are nothing but only noise.
My mind is a dark place to live in
and the warmth of your love will never be home.
My heart is a shattered mess
and your tight hugs
will never piece everything back together.

To the boy who will fall in love with me,
I don't love you to the moon and back.
I will never love you to the moon and back.
Not in this life.
Not in my future lives.

To the boy who will fall in love with me,
I am not the person who you think I am.
I will not reach for the stars,
I will grab the moon.
I will not paint your picture in the sky,
for a smile like yours is already art in itself.
You will not be my whole world,
nor my whole life.
For my world is so small,
and my life is so short,
to describe such love.
I will not look at you
and think about us,
think about how great it would be
to be with you.
For thinking is not happening.
And to make it happen,
I must stop thinking.
I will not read the stories your eyes tell me
I will live in them,
and your stories would be mine as well.
I will not count how many times you tell me you love me
For I would be too busy telling you I love you,
just as how much you love me.
I will not look at you and think
that we'd be together forever.
I will just hold your hand,
start walking and keep hoping that we'd get there.

To the boy who will fall in love with me,
You need to know that I am a very unhappy person
and never will you become my happiness.
But you will be the reason why I will keep looking for it.
The constant darkness is my friend,
and never will I consider you as my light.
For only love can eliminate the dark,
so you will be my love, not my light.
The voices inside my head is music
and your words are nothing but only noise.
But your actions would be my silence,
and in my silence,
I would find my peace of mind.
My mind is a dark place to live in
and the warmth of your love will never be home.
For home is somewhere or something
we've never found yet,
so take my hand, let's start walking
and let's find home.
My heart is a shattered mess
and your tight hugs
will never piece everything back together.
And that's okay.
I was never meant to be whole,
I was meant to be broken.
But all my broken pieces will love you whole.

To the boy who will fall in love with me,
I don't love you to the moon and back.
I will never love you to the moon and back.
Not in this life.
Not in my future lives.
Because after seeing how vast the universe is,
telling you "I love you to the moon and back"
would be a very rude thing to say.

To the boy who will fall in love with me,
I love you, without distance.
I love you, without measurements.
I love you, not to a certain degree.
I love you, not to a certain point.
I love you, and that's that.
I love you, period.