If You - Gdragon's Fanfic

Part 43: Tour

Me: Jinsung-ssi ... Would you accept me ... As a friend again?

Jinsung: It's okay if you want to be my friend. I'm okay. Ouh I want to go to the party and dance.

I saw she was blinking her eyes as she didn't want her tears to flow down.

Me: Friend?

Jinsung: Friend.

She went out and I started to cry.

Me: Seriously? Babo Jiyongi! We end up as friends? I supposed to say would you be my partner ... Mianhae Jinsung-ssi ... I can't steal my friend's happiness. He deserves you better than I do.

I couldn't gasp the air as I cried so hard. I took out the withered red rose in my coat.

Me: Mianhae ... Mianhae ... The day ... You hit my nose, I started to fall in love with you ... Your smile ... The warm hug ... Let's forget this.

I tore the picture that I had never gave to her slowly. My tears fell on the picture.

***

I sat on the rooftop while staring at the scenery of the dark sky at night.

Youngbae: I heard that ... You ... Rejected her?

Me: I didn't reject her. I asked her to be my friend.

Youngbae: Jinjja? Babo.

He knocked my head.

Me: Just do what you want to do. I'm numb right now. I feel nothing.

Youngbae: You're hurting yourself by hating her.

Me: That's the main purpose. I really want to get out from this love world. I want to concentrate on my job.

Youngbae: But still you need a supporter.

Me: I have my family, friends and you.

Youngbae: My supporting is not the same as hers.

Me: Yah ... Just stop talking about her. I'm done with her. Let's wake up early tomorrow because we have to practice for our tour. Night.

I went into my room and leant against the door.

Me: This is not easy, Jiyongi.

***

We reached to airport and the fans were waiting for us. This was the emotional moment for me when I saw fans were supporting us. Just then I saw Jinsung was waving hands towards us.

Me: Bae, is that Jinsung?

Youngbae: Where?

I looked back but no one was there.

Youngbae: You better eat medicine.

Me: Mianhae.

Suddenly, I heard Jinsung's voice. I gripped Youngbae's hand.

Youngbae: Wae?

Me: Jinjja I heard her voice.

Youngbae: You're crazy.

We went into the flight and flew to China.

Someone: Oppa!

The five of us looked at her.

They: Jinsung ah!!!

Jinsung: You guys are having tour?

Seungri: Ne. Why are you in this flight too?

Jinsung: My family and I will have a vacation there. See you soon.

I didn't look at her at all. It was hurt actually but that was the only way to forget her.

Me: I've told ya.

Youngbae: Why are you forgetting her?

Me: Someone loves her more than I am.

Youngbae: Who?

Me: You know who.

Youngbae: Maknae?

He whispered to my ear. I nodded slowly.

Youngbae: It's hard huh?

Me: Not really. I'm okay.

He held my hand and smiled. Youngbae was my best listener. We helped each other when one of us needs help. We landed in China and headed to the hotel.

Papa YG: Rest and later we'll eat dinner.

Daesung: I hope we don't eat exotic food.

Seunghyun: Wae?

Daesung: I'm okay if we eat instant noodles for the whole week we stay here but please not exotic foods.

Seungri: I'll buy you scorpions and force you to eat that hyung!

Me: I want to sleep.

Seungri: Hyung.

Me: Ne?

Seungri: Kamsahamnida.

I smiled and nodded to him. I held my heart and whispered,

Me: Gwaenchanha.