CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO: “WE’RE JUST GETTING STARTED”
I awake, tears streaming down my face as I cry out Jessica’s name. Shuffling in the bed next to me indicates me Jessica has woken up to, and immediately she wraps her arms around me. –‘What happened sweetie?’ –‘I had a bad dream.’ –‘Shhh, it was just a bad dream honey, shhh.’ –‘You don’t understand,’ I pause to sniffle, ‘You died. And there was nothing I could do. It was terrifying.’ –‘I am here, in your arms, and I’m alive. Here,’ she places my hand on her chest so I can feel her heartbeat, ‘My heartbeat. I’m still here. I’m not dead.’ I smile as I bury my face in the crook of her neck and inhale her scent. –‘You’re safe,’ I whisper as I squeeze her tightly. –‘Of course I am, I’m with you.’
The reason I had that terrible nightmare is because I literally hadn’t slept in three days and when I’m really, really tired like that I get nightmares; almost everyone does, actually. But most people don’t have no sleep for three days, so basically they never found out. You’re better off without finding out though. And I’m rambling again.
-‘I love you,’ I whisper in her ear, still in our loving embrace. –‘I love you more. No, wait, I love you to the moon and back.’ I giggle at her, and I hear a small giggle escape her lips too. –‘I love you so much more than just to the moon and back. I love you to… to the end of the universe and back.’ –‘Does it even end?’ –‘I don’t know, but if it doesn’t end, I will still love you to the end and back.’ –‘Wait, what? I don’t really get it anymore.’ –‘Me neither Cupcake,’ I admit laughing and peck her neck. –‘But really, hun, I really do love you.
Before I met you, I thought I knew love, but when I actually fell in love with you, and I started to love you, you gave the word love a whole different meaning. It’s so much more than described in books or films; it’s so much more than anyone could ever say. And even though I always say: ‘Nobody’s perfect,’ I finally have to admit I’m wrong, because you are perfect to me. Even though everyone has their flaws, they make you perfect. Even though everything, you are perfect, you gave that world a perfect view to go by with. I love you so, so, so much.’
-‘That is honestly the cutest speech ever babe.’ –‘I know, I’m such a cutie!’ She grins widely and scrunches up her face in that adorable way, making her look so incredibly… unbreakable. I swear, if I could freeze any moment in my life it would be that moment, cuddled up in Jessica’s arms, her grinning widely as she just confessed her love for me. It was truly perfect; and that kind of worried me, but the worries were vanished within seconds as she presses her lips onto mine.
Eventually it’s time to get out of bed; we both had quite some interviews and meeting today. I pull on baggy jeans and a shirt with ‘Skool Sucks’ on it, because I’m badass enough to wear stuff like that. Hell yeah. After accidently crashing my mascara brush in my eye and trying to fix it, I give up and shout Jessica for help. –‘What happened sweetie?’ she asks worried as she enters the bedroom, and sees me with smudged mascara. –‘The brush crashed into my eye and it hurts like hell, please, help me?’ Jessica tries to stifle a giggle and quickly fixes my mascara. –‘You’re good to go! Oh, no, wait, you are missing something… what about, bright red lipstick?’ Jessica winks at me and presses her just-done lips onto mine, moving in sync, before pulling away and eskimo-kissing me by rubbing her nose against mine. –‘I’ve really got to go,’ I say sighing as I try to pull away from her, but her eyes kept me captivated. –‘Can’t you stay a teeny weeny bit longer?’ she asks, pouting her lips. –‘I’ve really, really got to go, I’ve got a meeting.’ –‘Right, okay… I’ll see you tonight?’ –‘I hope so; I am going to Manchester for some promos though, so I don’t know when I’ll be back.’ I kiss her lips softly, and pull away, my heart aching as I do. I’d much rather stay here with her and just lay in bed all day.
