Love To Hate Me

Ill be damned if i see with another man

I sigh looking into the face of the man I used to love. I motion Andy to tell him that I can handle this alone. He smirks and says," Where were you? Be honest sweetheart."
I roll my eyes trying not to shiver when he said sweetheart. I softly say," I was off the grounds with my boyfriend."
Ronnie frowns checking my face for a hint of me lying. He knew me to well I thought to myself. He crosses his heavy tattooed arms and says," continue... Who's this guy?" I see the angry lit up his eyes. I always did love when he got jealous.
I can't think like this. He's not good for me at all. I speak up letting myself shout a bit," Craig.."
His anger must have gotten the best of him because he just mumbled the word whore and left me standing clueless.
Oh boy, this wasn't even half the drama I will be dealing with tonight. I go on the bus to trip into to none other than Juliet. Fuck she's back. Did Andy tell her? I just pass her hoping not to start anything. Andy looks in my eyes and mouths," She knows."
I grab the whiskey bottle and run out the bus knowing that someone might follow me. I let my tears fall down as I chug the bottle hoping the pain would replace with joy. I bump in to a bunch of fans as I try to find the exit for the whole venue.
I pick up my phone calling my friend Emily. She picks up and says," What's up?"
I speak nonchalantly and say," Meet me at the concert tonight. We will ditch and have our own party."
Emily smiles and says," We don't have to ditch. I bought tickets tonight for me and a bunch of the people I was telling you about. So it's your regular tonight?"
I chug more of the bottle and say," Yeah just some perc. Maybe some weed?"
Emily laughs and says," I got you covered. Just find a place for us to get fucked up. I got to get ready, bye."
I hang up my phone and sit out in the sun five mins away from the venue. I play on my phone until some random guy comes up smirking at me. He says," what's a girl like you sitting out here for?"
I roll my eyes and say," Just needed a break from the bands. How old are you like 15?"
He laughs and says," I am whatever age you need me to be."
I laugh and say," I am 21 so hope you are atleast 18."
He smiles and says," Yes I am 19."
I laugh and say," Well I got to get back before my best friend Andy freaks out. I'll see you tonight at the concert." Just as I said that I got a text from Craig," Babe, where are you?"
I texted back," I am just outside the Venue. Who's on now?"
Craig texts," Babe. It's one of the openers. You are crazy get in here."
I text back," fine," as I walk in through the whole venue to find the back where the buses are. I see Craig pacing infornt of his bus on the phone yelling at someone. I move in close to hear him say," You have to let me see my daughter, gabby!" My heart is broken for him as I hear him hang up the phone.
He pulls me in to him resting his head on my shoulder.
I rest my head and say," I am sorry Craig."
Craig lifts his head to connect his perfect pink lips against mine. I gasp and melt into the kiss wrapping my arms around his neck.
We are interrupted by Ashley purdy saying," Hey love birds. You down to drink?"
I smile as my boyfriend laughs and says," fuck yeah. Babe you down?"
I lie and say," maybe later but I'll come with you."
He looks at me and then grabs my hand as we follow Ashley to the venues bar. I watch as two of my favorite people start downing shots with a white cup and Dr Pepper chaser. I smile at them before I notice a text from Emily," hey girl. I am here i got the shit and my phone needs to be charged."
I text back and say," I'll meet you at the front where the tickets are ."
Craig saw my phone and said," babe what are you doing? Who's texting you?"
I jump and lie again," it's my friend. I am going to go meet her," I kiss his alcohol smelling lips.
He grabs the back of my head, leaning into it.
I pull away then head on my way to the front ticket place. I see my hot blonde drug dealer Emily. She smiles at me then runs into a hug with me. I hug her then see people following her, Andy, and Ronnie.
I think fuck they are going to yell at me. I pull Emily quickly in to the black veil brides bus locking the door.
Emily looks at me weirdly as she gives me my ten percs. I hand her the money as she gives me an eighth of weed. She counts the money as packs her stuff up knowing that we were on a time limit.
Recap
I was dating Ronnie at the time. Him and I were high on our drug of choices all the time we were together. Andy knew about Emily because of my drug use after Ronnie left me. 
Recap ended
She finishes as I grab us water bottles to take the pills with. We down two pills then unlock the door to see Andy and Ronnie. Andy scans my face and says," You fucking took something."
Ronnie grabs me and yanks me out the bus heading to his own. I leave Andy behind yelling at Emily. She denied everything then went on her way with her friends. I Yelp," Ronnie. Please put me down. I am fine."
Ronnie spats at me," you took something I know you. I saw you drinking earlier as well. I am going to kill you!"
I roll my eyes as we enter the falling in reverse bus. Jacky looks in shock as Ronnie nods to him knowing Jacky would go on his way. I losen his grip then open the door to go find Craig. Ronnie follows me closely behind me as I start to feel the pills sit in.
Fuck I felt amazing. The concert was starting soon. I couldn't find Craig so once again Ronnie took me back to his bus.