Love To Hate Me

Just like you

Ronnie texts back," We kind of fucked. You don't remember?"
Fuck this sent my mind into a recap.
Ronnie pulled me into the bus after he saw me with Emily. I hit him and say," What do you want?"
Ronnie half hearty said," You. Why are you doing pills again? You know what happened last time?"
I look at him angrily and say," This is none of your business, Radke. Yes I am fully aware. I was totally fine."
He looks at me weird and says," That's why you are slurring your words. You can't mix alcohol and pills."
I roll my eyes and say," Thanks dad. Now can I leave?"
He moves closer to me and says," No. You are better than this. What's got you all worked up?"
I laugh and say," Like you care. She just texted me and asked if I wanted a good time. I love you Radke. You were everything to me."
Ronnie eyes light up in anticipation and he slowly says," I know. I fucked up. I want you more than you know."
I look in to his eyes and say," You want me. You had me."
Ronnie pulls me in and kisses me gently. I kiss back and think what the hell I am doing. I love Craig.
One thing lead to another and we ended up having passionate sex. I regret every moan I made for him.
End of recap.
I text back," I don't. It wasn't supposed happen."
Craig looks at my worried face and says," what's wrong?"
I go to speak until I notice we are at Taco Bell.
He opens my door for me then locks the car. How am I going to tell him?
We walk inside hand in hand. Craig kisses my head and says," baby, what do you want?"
I smile and say," a 5 layer burrito." I sit down by the window as my boyfriend order our food.
I look at my phone to see a text from Ronnie," I love you Ashley."
I text back," this is all your fault."
Craig comes with the food and drinks. He look down at his blinking phone.
Craig's Pov
I was so enraged I didn't know what to say. I slowly scan the naked pictures of my girlfriend. What should I do? I want to kill that jackass. I knew there was something wrong with her last night.
Recap
I was sitting there drinking with some of my friends that other band members. We started drinking after a successful concerts. My girlfriend was no where to be found for like twenty minutes before Andy and Ronnie pulled her away from me. Something about drugs. I was so drunk I could barely focus. I search from her all night.
Recap ended
So now this all makes sense. She was using until she and Ronnie could get back together. I am so tired of being used. The worse part is that she didn't even tell me. Her body was nice. I almost felt guilty for seeing it before she wanted me too.
Ashley's Pov
He knows I can tell. I eat my food looking at him staring at his phone in disgust. I softly say," Craig, I need to tell you something."
He looks at me angrily and says," I know about you and Radke. The prick texted me you naked."
I look at him face blushed from holding in my tears and say," Craig, I didn't even remember. I was on pills. I am so sorry. Please I didn't mean to."
Craig clenching his fist and says," You did. That's all that matters. You could have came to me."
I start tearing up and say," I love you. I would have if Ronnie didn't pull me away."
Craig looks into my eyes and says," You fucking had me. I am so dumb. I knew it would happen but I just thought if I made you love me."
I let the tears fall down as I finish the rest of my burrito. I grab his hands and say," I do Craig. That was such a horrible mistake. He's the past."
Craig pulls his hands back and says," I don't know what to think. You haven't even spent the night with me. You spend the night with him."
I wipe my tears and say," I am sorry Craig. I didn't want to. Please Craig."
Craig takes the trash throwing all of it away in the nearby. Craig says," let's go now."
I shamefully follow Craig back to his black rental car. I open my door and watch as Craig gets in starting the car.
I slowly look down at my phone to see a text from Ronnie. He's such a fucking douche. I was going to tell Craig before he rudely sent pictures of me naked. I guess it doesn't matter Craig hates me anyways. We drove forty minutes to the tour before we get headed out to the next concert venue.
I go to find Max as I am stuck in Escape the fates bus until we reach another state. That's going to take at least four hours. Max looks at me and says," Why are you crying?"
I break down and say," I got all fucked up and slept with Ronnie. He sent pictures to Craig."
Max looks at me surprised and says," Holy shit. I hear you on that though. When I am on heroine I get all weird."
I sigh and says," I really fucked up Max." I check the messages from Ronnie. One said," I bet he liked those pictures." Another said," I know I did. Fuck I could get off by just looking at them."
I text back," Leave me the fuck alone. You are such an ass."
Max says," I know Radke can be such a jerk. Have you tried talking to Craig?"
I hug him and say," Yes." The door opens and we notice Craig in the doorway.
Craig says," First Ronnie now Max. Wow you just can't keep your hands to yourself when it comes to anyone but me."
He's drunk I thought. I say," Craig are you fucking kidding me?! Me and Max are just talking. "
Craig sternly says," is that so? Max get out."
Max gets out like he's told. I shallow hard and say," Yes."
Craig slowly comes closer to me.
Cliffhanger
What's going to happen?
Why is Ronnie doing this to her?
Does she love Craig or Ronnie?
Comment who you want her to be with