A Scenic Connection (BoyxBoy)

CHAPTER THIRTY SEVEN

I found myself laying on Tyce's chest as we finished one episode and moved on to the next. He laid down with his head resting on the arm rest with a pillow propped underneath it, pulling me close to him. I settled against him, feeling his steady heartbeat. I couldn't explain how it made me feel hearing those thumps, knowing I was currently close enough and vulnerable enough with someone else in that way. It made me feel very human, but also a joy rushed through my body that was unlike anything I had ever experienced before. There was no other way to describe it other than it felt so right laying there in the comfort of Tyce's arms. it was like it was meant to be; that was where I was meant to be. 

Tyce had his one hand against my back, gently running his fingers up and down absentmindedly as he watched what was happening on the TV. I felt more at ease in that moment than I ever had with him in the tent, as if clearing up that we were now, in fact, boyfriends made it all different in some way. I tilted my head up to look at him, studying his face and thinking about all of the kindness he had shown me over and over again. 

He noticed me looking and his eyes caught mine when he shifted his gaze to me, his chin tilted down a little. I gave him a small grin and he returned it, his expression brightening as if it had made his day. Even if it didn't, it sure made mine. I moved closer, closing the space that was between us, touching my lips softly against his. He kissed me back, pulling his head away a little each time to look at me before quickly going in for another kiss. Both of his hands slid up to each side of my face, caressing me softly. 

I pressed my hand flat against his chest as our kisses grew deeper and deeper. My shorts started to feel tight as I became turned on, and I felt my cheeks flush. Tyce slid his hand down my back slowly before stopping at my hip. Before I realized what was happening he rolled us over on the couch so that I was laying underneath him. He laid against me, and it was at that moment that I became aware of just how turned on he was. I could very clearly feel his erection rubbing against my leg as he shifted his hips slightly. He ran his fingers through my hair as his tongue slipped into my mouth. I kissed him back hungrily, my own tongue slipping into his mouth as we switched off. 

Tyce moved down and began kissing my cheek, and then moved lower to my neck. I turned my head to the side a little and bit my lip. The feel of his soft lips against my skin was absolutely intoxicating. I didn't want it to ever end. He sat up slightly, looking into my eyes for permission for a moment before reaching his hands towards the waistband of my shorts. A wave of excitement and anticipation swept over me, as well as a little bit of anxiousness. I took a deep breath to calm myself but it didn't do anything for my nerves. 

As Tyce reached for the button, I grabbed his hands while my eyes were closed. I didn't want to see the disappointed look on his face. 

"Tyce, I..." I stammered, feeling like an idiot. 

"I'm sorry," he quickly said, sitting up and putting some distance between us. I could no longer feel his warm touch and I suddenly felt very sad and stupid for messing up the moment. I opened my eyes and sat up too, avoiding his gaze, although I could feel his eyes on me. 

"I just..." I trailed off, gritting my teeth. "Oh god," I murmured as I exhaled slowly once more. 

"Did I do something wrong?" He asked sadly. I could feel the hurt in his voice and I grimaced. 

"No! Not at all! You're great! It's just me," I said, rolling my eyes at how cliche that sounded.

"Oh," was all he said. 

"Okay you might think this is really stupid but I haven't ever..." I stammered, trailing off once more. I finally dared to look at him. Realization dawned on his face.