Broken Soul l Julian Draxler

Month Five

Fifth month with Jasmin was hectic.

I do love her, I really do. But when we started our official relationship it became nervous. She were crying and I didn't know why and how can I help her.

- Baby please can you tell me why are you crying again? - I kissed her temple and hugged her.

- Julian I'm a one big mess. I'm sory. I'm trying so hard to not be like this but it's just stronger than me. - she looked at me with her big crying eyes.

- Tshhh, everything will be okay... - I kissed her lips softly.

- Baby, have you ever thought about going to psychologist? Maybe it will help you? Huh, I can go with you If you want - I smiled at her.

- What? I'm not ill Julian! I was raped, some fucking psychologist won't help me! - she got angry.

- Jasmine, stop shouting at me, I just want to help you but I'm powerless - her response made me angry too.
It's hard not only for her but for me too. I don't know what to do. Your girlfriend is crying once a day and you just sitting next to her speechless. It's not fucking great situation. That day after our argument she left me alone. She escaped again.

I didn't see her for a week. She texted me that she's okay and she need a time alone. I thought that it was a great idea. Everybody needs a time for their own, to think about things, calm theirselfs. Of course I was a bit scared of her but I trusted her. Now I know that it was right. She came back with apologise. I kissed her so hard.

- I missed you here Jas, I used to your presence - I hugged her.

- You were right about me. I will go to psychologist If it will help both of us and our relationship. I'm sorry for being an ass. But you need to understand that this is still so fresh for me - she buried her head in my neck.

- I know my darling and I'm really sorry...

- That's okay. I love you - she smiled.

- I love you too - I kissed her nose.

- I will do everything for our relationship Julian - she looked at me. I felt loved, I were believing in her words.

- I will too. I hope that you will marry me some day!

- That will be my dream come true - she grinned.

Now I'm not sure that she were telling me the truth...