Broken Soul l Julian Draxler

Month Eleven

Eleventh month with Jasmine, actually without Jasmine was full of loneliness.

I'm sitting right now in my house and thinking about her. About those past 10 months. I really thought she's the one. But what she did? She left me.
After reading her message I was a mess. I was blaming myself and trying to do something. Find her, talk to her. Anything that is related to Jasmine. But now, three weeks later I have different things on my mind. Another hangover day? Nothing new. I'm used to this right now.

- Draxler can you just stop? You're drinking way too much - said Ricardo.
- And what do you think I should do?! I fucking loved her and she left me! She left me like something unimportant, like I was nothing to her. And I was thinking about proposal - I laughed to myself.
- Julian...
- CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP PLEASE?! - I screamed at him.
- It's clear that I can't stand the fact that she did that. I don't know what to do with my life now. So please just let me be drunk right now - I told him and take another sip of my drink. I already feel tipsy.

But thats not enough. What I did that night shocked me. I was so drunk that I took a stranger girl home. She was nice. And looked a bit like Jasmin. And what is more she was drunk too. So we had a sex. All night. I was so lost in her. But not for real. All I saw that night was Jasmin's face. Her hair, nose, legs, breasts...

One night stands is not my thing. I know that. But did I regret it? No. Not even a bit.
I'm feeling bad because she broke my heart. I was so naive to fell in love so quickly. Marriage? Draxler, you're so stupid... Why me? I'm such a pussy when it comes to feelings. Always the sweetest, with rosy cheeks.
The loving and caring one. But life is not as easy for me as everyone thinks. Rich, young, talented guy with a future.

But she was my future and now she disappear...

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I know that I didn't update anything for so long but a lot of things happened in my life. There is only one chapter left so I have to end this story no matter what.
Sorry for any mistakes :)