I don't have a favorite food. I don't have a lot of things I even like to eat. Because now, I don't see just food.
I see calories.
Calories, and fat. And I have a fear of gaining weight. I have a fear of not ever being able to accept and love myself.
Recovery is really hard; maybe the hardest thing I will ever do.
I hope one day I will be able to not just see food as calories. I hope I find something that I really really like and eat as much as I want of it, without the fear of gaining weight.
so heres to the people like me, the people that fear eating, gaining weight, and rejection. keep fighting, recovery is tiring and difficult but I know it's so worth it.
xxo -court
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PoésieThis is just a collection of my thoughts and feelings. I struggle with anxiety, depression, self-harming, eating disorders, and insomnia, and suicidal thoughts. If these things will be triggering for you, then please be cautious and careful. I Love...
