Letting Go

Chapter 9

- Gab -

" Please tell me you like him too!" Talyah said eagerly with a wide smile on her face. Eww! No way. I rolled my eyes in the thought of liking another guy. " Gross! I don't and I never will!" I stuck my tounge out like a child. " Oh yeah right..." Talyah said in a doubtful manner. " I swear. I don't like anyone." I raised my right arm as a sign of promising. If I ever like someone, Talyah would be the first one to know for sure!

" why not? Chaz seems like a very nice guy! Not to mention cute..." she smiled shyly. Maybe she's the one who likes Chaz? Eww... I might not support their relationship. Just magining them together makes me shiver. " So? Remember what I told you? I don't like guys anymore..." I shook my head.

" So why not try again? Maybe Xavier was just-- the very wrong person for you.." Talyah said. I stood up from my bed and turned my back. No. Not about him again. " Stop! Just please... I don't want to talk about him." I looked down. Of all people, I expect her to know how much it hurts me. Just talking about him makes me upset.

" See, this is why I'm trying to find you a new guy." She placed her hands on her hips. That's not gonna help at all. If only she uderstood... I thought she did. " Look... Thanks for the effort but I really don't need it." I explained. I saw Talyah's concerned look.

I sighed and collapsed on my bed again. " I don't get why you girls are so concerned about me not being in a relationship..." I chuckled as I realized that stupid fact. " Can't you see what you're doing to yourself?! Gab, you're emotionally and physically hurting yourself." Talyah said in a sad tone. Am I really acting that way? I'm not sure. " And so how does having a boyfriend help me overcome those stuff?" I incredulously asked.

" Maybe it could help you get over Xavier." she said as if it was obvious.  " I already got over him.." I tried to keep my cool. I shrugged when I saw her doubtful look. She knew I was lying. I was lying to myself as well.  " Don't lie to me, Gabriella Thorn. I know that you still keep your 'Box of Memories'." She smiled a mixture of doubtfulness and mischief.

The Box of Memories is where I keep all Xav-- his letters and pictures and... Everything... I even kept his shirt there. My friends were only ones who knew about that box. Although... I didn't know that Talyah remembered that. " N--no I don't." I was a very bad lier. My voice was shaking. " Oh yeah? Then what's that box over there?" She pointed at something and raised her eyebrows.

" Fine... That's the box." I rolled my eyes and admitted it. I couldn't lie to my bestfriend. Talyah knows me too well. I bet if Christina and Macy was here, they could tell that I was bluffing the whole time just like Talyah told me. " I knew it, I knew it." She laughed at her success in making me admit that I was still holding on Xa--- I mean-- his things. " you got me..." I said and faked a smile.

" Let's see what we have here..." She said and sat down beside me on the bed. Talyah opened the box and it revealed alot of special things. Like our pictures! Our pictures brings back so many memories... Oh, and that rose that seems to have rotten was given to me by some 'Secret admirer'-- but he admits that it was him. And those letters... I never get tired of reading them over and over. The most special thing I kept was his shirt, I took it after-- let's just say something happened during one of his parties. And-- and--...

" The man hater loved..." Talyah kept repeating as she looked through the box. She kept shaking her head. " The man hater loved..." I lost count on how many times she already said that. Err!! I am so embarrassed and upset and-- and angry right now! " Whatever... Let's go down and eat some snacks." I said and stood up with her.

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" Hey mom... Got any ice cream? Some chips, maybe?" I said as Talyah and I entered the kitchen. "Just check, dear. Oh, and Talyah?" Mom said and turned to Talyah.  " Yes, auntie?" Talyah asked. "Are you staying for dinner?" Mom started to stirring and mixing again. " Nope, I'll be leaving in a couple of minutes" Talyah smiled. I opened our fridge and got some food. One thing I love about this house is that I always find food around.