Letting Go

Chapter 26

- Chaz -

She kept moaning and moaning. Gabriella was so tempting and sexy that she was very hard to resist. I knew where this activity leads. I need to get in her. "Please.. Just.." Gabriella didn't continue her statement because I kissed her again. She's been asking me to fuck her and I smirked. I want her to beg. 

"Beg for me.." I muttered with my voice surprisingly deeper than usual. My hands crawled up on her legs. "Chaz... Please? Please? Please?" Gabriella asked again. She was gripping on the ends of my shirt and I chuckled. "Just go!" She whispered harshly. "You need to get in me right now, mister!"

"Don't you think it's too early?" I asked her between our kisses. It's not that I didn't want to-- I really wanted to. I just think it's too early. "Then lets do it later at night." She grinned mischievously.

... Fuck it...

I took her top off and she muttered "Finally..". I mentally laughed. She pushed me off and pinned me on the bed, she was still grinning. Gabriella took my shirt off next and started working on my belt as I watched her.

"You look photoshopped. I mean, you just look so perfectly hot!" She chuckle with me. Once she took of my belt and looked at me, I gasped. "No, no, no, no.. We're not going there yet! We are not going there yet!" I warned her but she still continued trying to pull down my pants as I quickly tugged them up.

"Conservative? Why can't you be like Brad just for once? Fuck me!" Gabriella looked disappointed. I thought she didn't like perverted guys? She placed her hand on my chest and it crawled down on my stomach. "Shh! Someone might hear us!" I whispered and pulled her back on top of me.

"Just shut up and kiss me again!" Gabriella kisssed me and I was grinning between our lips. Our tougues glided together and it felt amazing like always. She ran her fingers through my hair and bit my lower lip. Damn, I love it when she does that! I slipped my fingers under her bra buckle. Just when I was about to unbuckle her bra-- someone knocked on the door. Damn...

She stopped then looked disappointe and annoyed. "Shoot.. Put your shirt back on! Dress up quickly!" She whispered. Both of us didn't stirred up to get dressed and I mentally laughed.

She leaned on the door. "Who is it?!" Gabriella yelled. Her voice sounded angry. I hugged her from behind and started kissing her neck again. "Relax.." I whispered. "Gab! It's me, Talyah!" Talyah knocked again. Gabriella turned around to kiss me. "Don't mind her. She can wait." She whispered. "I, on the other hand, can't wait." She grinned.

We started kissing again and I was starting to pull down her pants. Honestly, I never thought she'll let me go this far. "You got me so hard.." I chuckled.

"Oh wait, is Chaz there too? Sorry.. Am I-- am I disturbing something?" Talyah knocked again. Gabriella groaned. "Yes, Talyah. Yes, you are disturbing something." She said as if it was obvious and rolled her eyes. "Just go." I shook my head and forced a laugh. I dressed up quickly again as she did the same with a disappointed face.

- Gabriella -

Why now? Why not later? Ugh...

I opened the door just when Talyah was about to knock again. Her mouth was dropped open when Chaz and I stepped out of the room, holding hands. I think it was pretty clear that we were about to do something awhile ago. I mean-- messed up hair, perverted grins, holding hands--- Can't she tell?!

"Oh-- okay? I was definetly disturbing something..." She tried to laugh. "It's okay.. erm.. I have to go." Chaz said sheepishly. "Wait!" I said before whispering "We need to do that more often.." I whispered softly then kissed his cheek. He chuckled and nodded before walking down the stairs.

"Okay, what was happening back there?" Talyah raised her eyebrow. I shrugged then sat down on my bed, trying to recall all the touches and the kisses and.. unff... everything. My ovaries! I mentally laughed. "Eww! I know exactly what you two did!" She laughed really hard. "Stop laughing! It was nice and memorable!" I laughed too.

"Two perves in love... How nice," She laughed harder. "As if you didn't do that with your exes." I muttered and hoped she didn't hear me. She shrugged then sighed as if it didn't mean anything to her. Talyah already lost her virginity... After a week when she turned seventeen, she decided that maybe it was time. I got a bit disappointed but the good thing is she didn't face the consequenses.

"So... Were you two about do it?" Talyah wiggled her eyebrows. "Well, we were! But you came popping out of no where.." I rolled my eyes and she laughed again. "There was a lot of touching and kissing." I said and nodded awkwardly. "So does this mean you love him now?" Talyah grinned and I thought of what to answer.

Do I love him? Am I still using him? Was it because I need attention? Maybe it was simply lust... I don't know if it was love or lust. "I still don't know.." I admitted.

"Okay... So you're not lesbian. You're a tease. You're no longer a man hater." She said slowly. "So what am I?" I rolled my eyes and tried to sound interested. "You're a coward." She smiled innocently as if she didn't do anything. I gasped. A co--coward? Me?! No way. "Ho--how? No way!" I shook my head in denial.

"You're afraid of falling in love again." She said and looked serious this time. I sighed and looked down. She must be right. How sure am I that he's not like other guys? How sure am I that he loves me? How sure am I that he won't hurt me? I don't know.

Maybe he sees me as some girl he could just hit up any time he wants. Maybe he was the one using me. Maybe he's just like Xavier! Maybe he'll soon leave me alone and broken! Ugh! Maybe-- maybe I'm just over thinking stuff, it's not like we're getting married or something, no! Why am I thinking about these things?! None of my conclusions sound like Chaz at all.

"Hey, are you okay?" Talyah chuckled. I shook my head to clear out my thoughts. "Huh?"

"Your mom has been asking you if ou wanted to eat now." She looked at me weirdly. "Are you okay?" I nodded. "Well.. I'm leaving now. I have to go grab some dinner for my little cousins, they're staying over for a week." Talyah said as if she hated that fact. I mentally laughed then we said goodbye's.

I suddenly felt chills as the cool air entered my room through the window. I came to close the window but I stopped when I saw Chaz sitting on the tree. He was looking down as he swung his feet above the ground. He looked serious and in deep thoughts. Do you think he-- he heard our conversation? My heart began to race.

"Chaz?" I called him and he looked at me. He looked upset but his expressions changed when he saw me. A weak smile crept up his face. "Come here. Sit beside me." He muttered. I crawled out of the window and slowly sat beside him.

"Are you okay, Chazzy?" I tried to sound cheerful. "I'm fine." He said and wrapped his arms around me as I rested my head on his shoulder. He kissed the top of my head.

"I love you." He said and I looked up. Like always, his eyes would melt me. I kissed him. Not the deep passionate kind. Just the simple kind of kiss. He smiled. Deep down, I know he was expecting me to say it back.

Do I love him back?

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AUTHOR'S NOTE :

Sorry for some errors, I wasn't able to edit it. So I might not be able to upload soon. Maybe after 2 weeks I will. SO SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT!! Things came up.. Ugh. I hate school. Hope you liked this chapter! :)