The Outsiders fan fiction Sodapop

Chapter 4

I hope you all like my story! Please keep in mind this is my first story I've published so it may not be wonderful, but I hope you like it :) happy reading.

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Ashley's pov

Darry hung up the phone and looked over at our anticipating faces with utter shock and just complete sadness. He waited a while then finally spoke directly facing Soda.

"Soda....uh....can I talk to you in the kitchen," Darry asked hesitantly

"Yea sure whats up," Soda asked looking worried

They both walked into the kitchen and started arguing I caught a few words like pregnant and you idiot. I don't know what they were talking about but Dally seemed like he knew because he looked real worried and wouldn't stop looking at me. I finally just came out and asked him

"Dally what's going on?" I asked.

"Uhh I don't know ask Soda," he spit out

"Oh come on I can tell your lying what's really going on!" I demanded.

"Uhh why don't you let Soda tell ya cause yea.....just let him tell ya.......I think it i'll be better for all of us if he tells ya himself," Dally stuttered out.

"Fine I will, thanks for your help, not!" I yelled to Dally and got up and walked into the kitchen and stood in the doorway.

Sodas pov

What have I done, oh man what have I done. The only girl I've ever loved is gonna hate me once I tell her this. Oh man, I'm such an idiot.

"Soda what are you gonna do huh, your a father now, a father to a newborn baby! Oh and when do you plan on telling Ashley huh?" Darry threw at me harshly making it all sink in my heart. Tearing apart at my soul.

"I don't know Darry," I yelled back

"Well when did you plan on telling me you got a girl pregnant or did you just fine this not important at the time?" Darry jabbed at me.

"I don't know I just wasn't gonna tell no one and I thought it would all just go away," I stifled out.

"Really you idiot you thought getting a girl pregnant was just gonna go away, just disappear, you weren't gonna have to worry about it anymore, well it doesn't work that way little buddy, you're a father now. You're gonna have to own up to your decisions, and do something about this crap," Darry thrashed out of his mouth.

"Darry I was just scared, I didn't know what to do so I just kept it to myself and thought that she would just not want anything to do with me and I wouldn't have to worry about it! I didn't know it would blow up like this!" I threw back feeling all of the guilt in the world pouring down on my shoulders.

"So Soda when DID you plan on telling me? Huh we're you just gonna let me find out when you brought a baby home and just said hey surprise I have a baby that I made with some blonde chick that's not you hope you don't mind!" Ashley screamed with tears running down her face.

"Ho......how long.....have you been standing there?" I asked turning around to face the only girl I've ever loved and to see the pain in her face just killed me in side.

"Long enough to hear that you're a lying, cheating, deceitful, jerk who thought they could just go through life dating me and never tell me that your a father, huh you were just gonna go through our life and never tell me that!" Ashley raged at me.

"I didn't know what I was gonna do, ok, I didn't know what I was gonna do. At the time it seemed like the worst thing I could've done was tell ya cause I knew it would break your heart," I said with every ounce of sincerity I could get out to try and prove to her that I truly do care for her.

"Oh so the right time to tell me is when you have a baby and you're a father! You know what Soda have a good life because if you truly cared for me you would have told me! We're done!" Ashleys words jabbed at my heart as she ran out the door in a sprint leaving me with guilt twisting my heart into a broken pile of nothing. I was nothing without her, nothing.

Ashley's pov

I sprinted out the door so no one could stop me, running and running all the way to my house. Just wanting to be anywhere but there. Anywhere but the house that held the only boy I've ever loved, the only boy I've ever known that was different , better, stood in that house a father now. I was not the mother. It was some blonde chick he dated before me, he got her pregnant. While we were dating! I couldn't believe it. Everything seemed to be going so well. I thought he loved me, but obviously he does not. It breaks my heart tears apart all the feelings I've shared with him into a million pieces of worthless nothing.

I got to the steps at my porch and stopped. Trying to recompose myself so it didn't look like I was crying. There was no use, I would never stop crying, ever even though I ended it. I knew my heart would never live without his love filling the void. I would never be happy again, never stop crying. I now have a large black dark hole covering my heart invading my soul and and taking away the fairytale that Soda made me feel when I was around him. Hearing him yell and argue with Darry just made it even more surreal. I took a step and faced my house not knowing what would lie for me behind the door.