complications...

Chapter 9

It was Monday

I was early for my personal development class. I sat there going over my history notes. College life wasn't a bed of roses at all. All these people do is talk for hours and give a zillion assignments. If I wasn't on the ball I would have been swallowed up by work.

My teacher crush Mr.Byfield entered the room.

He was one of the reasons I had to be here early. He was fine as hell.

"Can I have all my assignments please" he asked the class.

We all handed in our work. Well, most of us.

Then he began his little lecture.

"So,for those that did the assignment, you were to write some things that you would want to change about yourself. In doing this,you would have to examine yourself keenly to evaluate your good qualities and identify your bad ones".

He went on for quite a while on the whole examining oneself thing. He mentioned that we all have some pretty bad traits that may hinder us from growing as an individual.

I was very attentive to his lecture.

He mentioned a particular word that hit me.

Forgiveness.

That was one of the things I was definitely not good at.
If you cross me,that was your choice to make, not mine, so why should I forgive you for it.?

Mr.Byfield went on to say that harbouring unforgiveness in our hearts is a heavy load to carry and it makes us very cold on the inside.

(I felt like I was in church and the pastor was preaching a sermon directed to me.)

He spoke about us having difficulties forming healthy relationships with others as we are lowkey fearful that nobody is worth our trust.

My mind went back to....my dad..
I havent forgiven him for what he did to me, and to be honest I can't see myself forgiving him. But after listening to my teacher crush expound on forgiveness it made me realize that my father wasn't the one suffering from all this hurt. It was me. He still had a lot of close friends while I literally cut off most of mine, he was still happy going about life while I would rather lock myself in my room all day and most importantly I found it extremely hard to open up to anyone because of this thing they call trust issues.

I shrugged all my thoughts aside .
Maybe one day I will forgive that man. But not right now.

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I was at the library, finishing my reading for history. I was already six classes ahead.
I was on a roll.

"Hey Katherine".

" Wassup Jayden"

I kinda felt bad for tossing him out the room when he did after all help me. So I decided to be a nice lil Katherine for today.

#1. I offered to let him sit beside me.

#2. I actually held a good conversation with him.

Who knew this dude watched. naruto. We literally spent a couple minutes building up our chakara till the librarian told us to be quiet.
He was extremely funny.
We had a lil argument over who was the better team Cleveland Calviers or Golden State Warriors, but other than that it wasnt bad.
I deserve a high five with a box of pizza.

The bell went and we made our way to our class.
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After class he insisted on walking me back to my dorm room. He has been annoying me with that stupid song... What does the fox say.

"If you don't quit singing that stupid song amma stuff my foot down your throat" I snapped.

He chuckled like I just gave a joke.

"I'll stop,but only because really I love my throat " he chuckled.

We reached my room and I told him goodbye.

"Hold up, one more thing"he said.

"What's that "

"Go to ball with me "

"The answer remains the same young blood,No"

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"Why did you tell him no " Janae whined.

"Because I don't want to go"I explained.

Let's be clear Jayden was basically the only person I actually knew on campus,well aside from all my professors. So whole idea of going to this ball did not strike any particular interest.

"O come on for goodness sake,go to that ball with tha hottie" she exclaimed out of frustration.

"Give me one good reason why I should go" I questioned

"Honey, a cute guy asked you to go,your parents load you up with money so you can more than afford a dress,shoes,jewlery,you name it, plus you didnt even go to your high school prom,so you my friend have no reason not to go" she uttered in one breath.

I just sat there sipping my juice looking at her.

"Yaaaay" she said clapping her hands.

"I don't know why the hell you clapping your hands for"

"You said nothing, that's a yes"

I was actually considering it.

"Only if you come with me" I said

"But I don't even go to your college boo"

"It doesn't matter"

She took up her phone and called someone.

"Jayden my dear,my stubborn best friend will accompany you to that ball" she exclaimed with a wide grin on her face.

I threw a piece of ice at her. How did she even have his number.

"Y'all gang up on me man, no fair" I said throwing another piece of ice at her.

"I love you too hunny" She. laughed.

"Now come on we have dress shopping to do" she exclaimed literally pulling me out of the bar.

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"My feet hurt Janae" I whined.
We have been walking in the mall for ages and my feet were crying out ,not to mention my stomach.

We already bought a dress for Janae she fell in love with this royal blue dress she saw in the store I can't even remember the name.

Unfortunately for me, I bought nothing. I didn't like any of the dresses I saw. That's means I have to go through another day of this torture.

"All done,let's go"

"Finally!"
"Music to my ears"

I dropped the two bags I was carrying and walked out heading to the car leaving Janae to carry them.

"Seriously Katherine" she complained.

"After all its your stuff, hurry up will you" I replied.