They Told Me I Was Gone ~Joshua Dun FanFiction~

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As I walked out of Maya's office, I kept my head down as I normally did, but someone called my name, getting my attention. I looked up to see Josh, the boy from the coffee shop, walking towards me from across the small lobby containing other patients.

Today he was wearing a black shirt with his black jeans and Vans. I suddenly started to think of my outfit, with my brown sweater and leggings and my never changing brown combat boots. My hair as always was in a french braid that was across my left shoulder. I wondered if he liked my hair again today, since it was exactly the same as the last time he saw me.

"Hi, how are you?" He asked in a very open and friendly voice. I found myself once again wondering what he was doing in a place like this. WHy was he in therapy if he was such a happy person?

My heart was pounding as I slightly panicked. People very rarely spoke to me and even more rarely did that ask me anything personal. "Um, I'm, uh, I'm good, I guess. How are you?" I stuttered out. I knew that I sounded like an idiot that had never been exposed to the outside world, but I couldn't help it. I didn't know what to do in situations like this and it's when my anxiety started to burn in my chest, making it hard to breathe or focus on the things around me. Luckily Josh didn't seem to notice this.

"I'm pretty good. Are you going to The Bean?" He asked, putting his hands in his jeans pockets nervously. He bit his lip and looked at me with wide eyes. MAybe he had anxiety? Was that why he was in here? But if he had anxiety, how could he be such an outgoing person? It couldn't be anxiety.

I thought a second before answering. "Yeah, probably." I bit my lip, and gripped tightly onto the long sleeves of my sweater.

"Well, do you want to go with me? I was about to walk there." He offered, smiling as always. It was almost infectious and it made me want to smile a little bit, but not enough to actually change my mood. As per usual, I was pretty much numb to the things going on around me.

I panicked a little, gripping my sleeves even tighter and looked at him with terrified eyes. No one really invited me anywhere. I've never been on a date or to a party. This was new for me and I didn't know how to respond. Josh seemed to notice this, "Don't worry, it's perfectly fine with me if you want to read the whole time. I just liked the company, and you don't have to if you don't want to." He clarified.

I let out a sigh of relief when he said that. He wasn't going to pressure me into going anywhere with him. He wasn't going to get angry if I didn't go, it seemed like. He didn't expect me to engage in any type of conversation with him while we were there, so i could still sit and read but I didn't have to be quite so alone in doing it.

I smiled lightly, mostly just turning up one corner of my mouth as an excuse for smile, "Sure." I answered. I was still nervous about going anywhere with him, but so far, he was the only person I had ever come across that wanted to spend any time with me, or showed any interest in me at all. I was going to take this chance before it was gone. 

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