"I promise I'll be here when you wake up."
With a faint smile, he held both of my hands as tight as he could.
"I will always be here for you.. no matter what happens."
Actually, apart from death.. I'm more afraid of losing him in the process.
How do I live without him?
He lift my hands to his lips while looking straight into my eyes. Such sweet gesture. I bit my pale lips.
I hope we can stay like this forever.
"How can you be so sure about the result of the operation?"
The thought makes me tremble. Frightening. It sends chills down my spine.
I try to break free from his tight grip but he doesn't let me.
As much as I want to be positive for us, I still don't know what the future holds for me.. for us.
Why does getting a happy ending seems so incredibly hard?
Am I not deserving after all?
"Trust me, everything's going to be fine. To you. To us."
I can't help but smile due to his reassurance.
He is my motivation.. my driving force to overcome everything..
And he will always be.
Even when I feel like giving up, he picks me up before I let him down in so many ways.
Even more so, he catches me as I fall for him so many times.
He is everything a damsel-in-distress is looking for in a knight-in-shining armor.
Then I woke up and saw the harsh reality.
So much chasing in circles and risking in the process
Leaving you with even more pain, heart break and solitude.
Just when will I ever learn my lesson?
