Mental Institute: BTS 101

"I like Jungkook."

Dear Sarang

Yoongi is a really nice person. He seems to have a lot of knowledge. Apart from his addiction to fire, I found a way to help him. Dad approved my idea and it was the first time I heard him compliment me.

I feel happy.

...

Yesterday, we found a place to crash. Everyone immediately went to sleep since we were all exhausted. But I didn't get to sleep well.

While laying on Taehyung's chest, since he insisted to stay with me, I kept having bad dreams again. Ever since I entered the institute, those bad dreams only occurred a few times, unlike now.

Before I was entered, I had the occurence of five nightmares every night. And tonight, it looked like it had returned.

So I was scared. I didn't dare to go back to sleep and instead, sat down near the river with the journal on my lap.

I didn't want to bother anyone. We were all tired and nerve-wrecked from that incident.

Flipping a few pages, I noticed that I almost got to the middle of the book. Naeun did write a lot of things in here, even when she knew Dad was reading them all.

With my fingers tracing around the corner of the pages, I read another entry.

Dear Naeun

My hand froze. She wrote a page to herself? This was the first time.

Dad called Jimin in for interrogation. A few hours later, he came back looking very pale. My heart ached when I saw him, so I rushed towards him to talk about what my Dad did to him. Jimin just shrugged me off and I let him be.

Frowning, I flipped a few pages back to her previous entry and noticed that she was writing more flat than usual. In her previous, she was all cheerful and bubbly, but this entry was very stoic. Too cold and lacked of emotions. It seemed more like she was reporting things, rather than describing what she went through.

Taehyung was the next one to go to my dad, and he came back looking indifferent. That night, Taehyung and Jimin hadn't interacted with each other or even talked. I stayed with Taehyung and asked him about what that interrogation was about but just like Jimin; he shrugged me off.

I wondered if they got into a fight.

Confused, I flipped through the next pages and noticed that every entry was dedicated to herself and that my name was never mentioned again.

Jimin asked me on a date. I said no, because... I don't know.

Taehyung was sad. He cried two to three times a night. I heard him cry through my walls. He seemed to be suffering.

Also, the room next to me was now occupied by a young man. His name was Hoseok. He was okay. He seemed to understand how I feel from time to time.

Jungkook was more comfortable around me, along with the rest of the members.

The following pages were left blank, as if she had stopped the entry. There was an incoherence in her description. The following pages after the blank onces, barely contained entries. Only two to five sentences were written in the middle of the pages.

Taehyung was put in an isolation room. After hearing him cry for five straight nights, Dad seperated him from us, telling us that he needed healing. Jimin broke down again that night.

I flipped another page.

As much as I wanted to visit Taehyung, Dad warned me to stay away from him. While Dad allowed Yoongi to visit him. Jimin locked himself in the room and he wouldn't let me in.

Ever since Yoongi visited Taehyung, his addiction to fire became more vicious. I knew that I had to help him, so I started my plan earlier. I gave him the lighter with no fuel, so he could play with it without setting things on fire. After a while, he seemed really happy that he was no longer bringing harm to everyone and manage to control his addiction day by day.

I gasped when I read that. So Yoongi's lighter was a gift from Naeun. No wonder he was being vicious against me. Not only does that lighter hold precious memories, it was also the last remaining thing he got from Naeun. I bit my lip and felt guilty. I was being too careless. It's my fault that he lost it. I hope he would be fine without that lighter. It's impossible to get it back, unless we go back.

I shook off that thought and sighed while continuing to read.

Dad called me up for interrogation. On my way, I met with Taehyung. He was finally freed from his cell, but he was acting really unfriendly with me. He told me that he couldn't stand the fact that I got closer with Jungkook after Jimin had locked himself up and he and Yoongi were most of the time together. Namjoon was still hard to approach because he was constantly in his room eating jams, and with Jin and Hoseok, I do talk with them, but I feel more closer with Jungkook, for some kind of reason. He's a good boy that follows and listens very well. And I like that about him. I guess, this was also one of the reasons why I rejected Jimin. The other is the fact that Taehyung was being unfriendly with me and something inside of me tore me up. I wanted that happy Taehyung at my side again. I really miss him. But actually, somewhere deep down, I know that I missed him more than just a friend.

Did Jimin read all this? Wouldn't he feel heartbroken after he knew that Naeun didn't crush on him? But on the other side, I wonder how Naeun and Jimin ended up with each other. Or was Jimin lying and did they never date?