Already Gone (Harry Styles / One Direction)

I'm Starving

We sit on the sofa eating our takeaway and she looks up at me and I smile. "Harry.." She pauses and I see a small frown form on her face.

"Yeah love." I look at he sitting my food to the side.

"Can we try again?" I look at her and I think I know what she's talking about but I'm not sure. Because I'm not sure I'm not answering that until I am. Confusing? Yes I know but I don't want to speculate anything.

"Try again for what love." She pushes into me as she slowly scoots her body around placing her bad leg in my lap.

"Can we try again for a baby? I mean obviously not right now given that I need to properly heal. But once the doctors say it's fine can we?" I stare at her small frame, and I smile of course we can try again. Hell we wasn't trying before, but that I'm proud of because that means my little dudes are strong and can push past that birth control.

"Love when the doctors say it's safe, I will make love to you whenever and wherever you want." She giggles then leans in for a kiss and I kiss her trying to shove all my passion into it. I haven't been able to properly kiss her for a while and I have missed it.

"Can I tell you something?" Maddie ask this and of course I nod like I always do. "I feel bad for that mans family." I stop everything I am doing and look ahead. She feels bad? How can she feel bad, he decided to get pissed and drive. He decided to crawl is miserable self in the drivers seat which ended with him almost killing her and did kill our child. So how does she feel bad? "Stop it H." She pulls at me arm but I tug it away. No I wont stop it, I know she's a kindhearted person but there is a point in which that shouldn't matter.

"How could you feel anything but anger Maddie. Do you not realize what he took from us, what he did to you?" I move her leg from my lap and I jump up screaming this out. "He almost took you from me!!! He killed our child and you feel for him. You are....." I run my hands threw my hair facing the wall. I hear as Maddie Sniffles then I hear her move. I turn around as she hops over to her crutches and I feel bad. I shouldn't have flipped like that. "Maddie." I walk over to her holding her arm as she looks up at me.

"I think I know what he took Harry. I think I feel it everyday when I fucking move, or when I close my eyes and all I see is what could have been. Or when I see a mother with her child. You don't think I know? His family though Harry! They lost a son, a brother. His choice was his, along with his actions not their's so yeah I feel bad for them." She says in a quiet voice and I reach for her and she comes willingly. "I know he took something from us but his family shouldn't feel responsible." I don't know I guess I just went off because I haven't really been able to. I've had to hold in all of my anger because I don't want her to see it. "It's ok H. It's ok to hate him it's normal but I know that we have to forgive it. It wont change what happened but if we hold on to it, it will change us."

"I'm sorry love, I didn't mean to flip like that." She smiles leaning into me then holding her arms up in the air and I laugh picking her straight up.

"I love you Styles." She pecks my cheek. "Now take you woman to bed so we can watch a movie and snog." I laugh out at this her using British slang is a bit funny.

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~~Maddie's POV~~

Here we are snuggled up in our bed and I couldn't be happier, well yeah once this fucking brace comes off. This thing itches like crazy, Harry looks up as I try to dig inside it. He reaches down and I hear as he pulls the Velcro straps and I groan at the slight release. I look at the pink scar that is right above my knee. Man I have a lot of scars now, and that sucks. "It's not that bad love, it will fade over time." I look up at him with a smirk.