Safe (a Toby Turner fanfic)

Suicidal

TOBYS POV

What the hell is wrong with me!? What the hell have I done!? please kill me now! I cheated on Kat, AND ENJOYED IT! She must hate me now! I wish Dominic would just kill me now!

We sat silently in the room. Then Dominic came in and held a rag to Kat's face, she didn't try to struggle away from it. She didn't really care. He then came and put it to my face. I really didn't care either. Soon I was passed out.

I woke up in my and Kat's bed. Kat laying next to me, still asleep. Did he really bring us back!? I shook Kat to wake her up. She sat up and left the room. Not saying a word. She does hate me. Great.

"I'm sorry!" I screamed down the stairs to her.

"I don't care. You cheated on me! I wish he would have just killed us!" She began to cry. I sat on the top step. How am I going to pay her back!? Where has Spencer been this whole time? How long were we gone. I walk to the kitchen and turn on the Mac. Its been two weeks since we were kidnapped. I guess it felt like it was longer. I don't know why Dominic brought us back. I guess he just wants us to live in fear and pain. Kat hates me. And I HAVE to save Holland. Since she was being held against her will. I love them both. I don't know who I love more.

"I HATE MYSELF TOO!" I screamed. I ran into the bathroom. I heard Kat coming upstairs. I didn't care though. I should be killed. I hurt too many people. I got a razor out of the cabinet, and began to dig them into my wrist. At first it hurt, then the pain was gone. It felt good. It was like a new low. I heard Kat banging on the door. I now began to go hazy, I couldn't see anything. Then all of a sudden I saw me and Kat. I was standing in the field. I had a tuxedo on, Kat stood across from me. In a long white dress. it was perfect. Then all of a sudden Kat's face began to melt, like she was a wax figure. I felt myself getting heavy, like I couldn't stand anymore. then the ground came out from under me. I was now in what seemed like a black hole. never ending. I was slipping into oblivion. I was dying. Finally. All this pain is released.