Double Mistake

Chapter 9: Keep Going

It's been at least a few weeks in this damn hell hole of a coma, I mean I guess I should just be happy that I'm even alive. I've been wondering the hospital looking at the patients, yes I know...'stalker' but I found this little kid that has cancer, his name is Kyle. He's 12, and he have hope and believes he can recover. An I think he will too. He's a tiny thing, but by the pictures and the get well cards all over his hospital room he must be athletic. I visit my hospital room a lot and see Grayson crying and holding my limb body, I feel terrible about It but I can't look at him. He's in so much pain, and I can't stand to see him. My mom is there once and a while, but no sight of my brothers. Ethan, Nate, and Paige visit a lot. Ethan's almost always with Grayson in here, and it sucks because they cry.

I laid in bed where my body was at, and I just stared at my pale face. My family always called me beautiful but I've just never seen it, I meant their family aren't they suppose to make me feel good about myself...or at least try. I've never been happy in my own body, I'm always trying to change myself for people and for myself. I'm kinda happy though that I'm not happy with my body, because if I was happy then I'd probably be sleeping with a bunch of guys. And I do not want that because that's just terrible!

My bullet wound sent shock waves of pain up my stomach, I could feel my heart beat in it. I started groaning in pain and sweating like crazy, and then my finger tips tingled.

**I put on my outfit and did a few struts around the room to see how I felt, then I heard a knock on the door. "If it's Grayson, stay out! If Grayson can see through the door way when you open the door then do not come in." I said. "It's me Ethan." He said. "Alright come in Eth." I said slightly laughing. He opened the door an his facial expression was different, "what's wrong ?" I asked walking over. "You look beautiful!" He said stunned. "awe Ethan that's so sweet." I smiled at him. "Yea Grayson's a lucky guy, he's pretty nervous for this date too." He said. "Ugh if anything I should be nervous, I am actually." I said. "Here I'll help you with your hair, sit down." He said grabbing my straightener, "do you know how to work it?" I asked. "Ouch! Shit!" He said dropping the straightener since it burnt his finger. I laughed at him, then I grabbed his finger and planted a kiss on it. "Feel better?" I laughed. "Mackenzie your an amazing girl..." He trailed. "Ethan please not tonight." I said. "Ok I won't, but please just remember I love you." He said. Then I grabbed him by the collar and leaned it and planted a soft kiss on his cheek. "I will always love you Ethan, but I'm happily dating and in love with Grayson." I said. "I know." He sighed. "Now help me do my hair, be careful this time too please." I pleaded. "Yes princess." He chuckled.
While Eth did my hair I put on makeup, I did a little more than usual but it wasn't over board, it was just enough and gave me a mature look. "Your stunning." He said. "You think he will like it?" I asked. "He will love it, he loves you no matter what anyways." Ethan smiled. I jumped up and wrapped my arms around Ethan's neck, and then I buried my head in the crook of his neck. "I love you Eth." I said in a friend way which he knows. "Love you too." He said as his chest and neck vibrated as he spoke.**