Outsiders ➵ bts

Jeon Jungkook// END

Pretty Boy Jungkook. He was such a tease. He got good grades, He had a few friends but he was very shy, and a major heart throb. He could Practically control all his "fangirls" by smiling. He had major power but didn't even know. All his power ended on his graduation. No one even bothered to talk to him after Highschool. He was completely alone...

              + Jeon Jungkook

Hey mum, It's Jungkukkie(don't ask) I just wanted to see how you were doing. I miss you... I wish you would return my calls. Happy Mother's day by the way! I stopped by the house to see you, but I guess you must've moved.. It's ok that you forgot to tell me. *Silence* I hope we can meet up soon mom. Love you mummy.. see you soon ~

29th voice mail in almost 3 years. I tossed my phone onto the couch than sat slumped over with my bottle of Soju.

Life seemed to be spiraling down hill these past few years, and finally I hit rock bottom.

There was no point to keep on going. No love or passion left in my life. I turned down the only good opportunity in my life.

I was 20 years old and had nowhere to go or anything good coming for me.

My sorrows yet again turned to anger, and I found myself throwing things. Tears sprung as I screamed in loneliness and agony.

I lay curled in a corner crying like the little wimp I am. I am a no one, a cowered, Outsider.

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I laid for about an hour drowning in my sorrowful reality.

Taking out a rag I wiped my runny nose than stood up. My body ached from all the activity I don't do anymore. I was such a lively soul back in Highschool. I had a few friends and I seemed to be the best at lots of activities.

Son sunha she was the my world.. she was my sun. She really kept me going.. gosh I miss her.

'I must still have her number in my phone.' I picked back up my device an scrolled down my contacts until I saw her beautiful name.

Ring ×6

This is Sunha sorry I couldn't answer. Promise I'll call back.. kisses Beep!

Hey Sunha it's me Jungkook.. I just wanted to tell you I'm sorry. I know I screwed up big time, but I hope we can be friends again. You where always lovely to hang around. Please*Voice cracks* call me back.. We can meet up in that old Cafe like in Highschool. I miss you Sunha

Another call gone to voicemail ugh why do I even try anymore.

I slumped back over except this time I leaned against my plain lonely wall.

I hadn't realized how ugly this apartment actually was until that day.

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Finally it was the end to my lonely day, and time for my medicine than to escape this awful reality.

As I stood staring at the person in my mirror I felt almost disgusted.

My hair looked all dead. I was sickly pale, my skin looked as if I was a freshly dead soul. Of course my soul died months ago.

I lifted my shirt to reveal my yet again very sickly thin body. I don't eat much anymore, and if I do eat it's mostly a bowl of rice or some spoiled soup resulting me becoming ill.

Thinking about all of it became to much for me, so without realizing it my fist slammed into the mirror now laying next to my foot.

I took my meds than climbed into my old warn out bed. I've had this bed since I graduated.

"Fuck."I sighed beginning to feel the pain in my now pulsing muscle.

Sitting up I sat with my shouldered slouched as I stood to take some pain medicine, maybe if I'm lucky enough I'll accidentally take one to many pills.

Pulling out the bottle I dumped the remaining pills into my hand

Three pills? What a joke I thought swallowing them than going back to my safe haven, than drifting off too my dream reality.

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When I woke I felt worse than ever. My knuckle still ached, and someone was banging on my door.

"I'll be there." I yelled, but my voice sounded like a dying something I don't even know.

"Ah Jeon Jungkook?" I opened the door to see my Landlord's fake smiling face.

"Yes?" I spoke looking only at the ground.

" You haven't paid rent for almost a year, and no one could get ahold of you.. I'm sorry but we need you to get your stuff out of this apartment as soon as you can.. we'll give you a week, because we know this somehow could come as a shock." I simply nodded than closed the door after he left.

"Fuck me." I muttered holding my face in my palms.

Now is the time.. this must be a sign telling me "Kill yourself Jungkook". I will gladly say this is a sign and end it all.

"Why don't I just jump down from the shoe company building?" I asked myself grabbing my car keys.

My car may be a piece of shit, but she's all I got left.

I stepped outside, and almost forgot it was midsummer and the sun was Shining bright. It caught me off guard a little, but I still remined determined to achieve my goal.

I drove recklessly to the building surprisingly without crashing into anything.

I entered the building looking completely out of it. I'm almost positive someone was going to escort me out, but I disappeared.

I climbed the stairs to see a man with bright blondeish whiteish hair leaning against the brick smoking.

"What brings you up here young one?" He asked as his eyes where still closed.

"Uh.. I'm done trying." I admitted sighing softly.

"Ahh so you came here to jump off?" He tapped the Cigarette, opened his eyes than walked toward me.

"You're so young why are you giving up?" He asked pulling me away from my jumping spot.

"You wouldn't understand me so go!" I snapped trying to wiggle free from his grip.

"Listen.. how about you come back to my place? I'll feed you and you can tell me. If you still feel like life isn't worth it I won't stop you.. Deal?" He let me go than stuck out his hand.

"Uhh. Sure." I shook his hand than stood there watching him flick the ash off the end of his cigarette than drop it.

A/N
UNEDITED

BOOM TWO CHAPTERS IN ONE NIGHT!! :')

It was hella hard staying in the mood to write this cause my Spotify decides to play every Happy Seventeen, Exo, Big Bang song in my 300 songs.. XD

Now since I have them all done I'll post the part two too the ones that need it. :))))

-BNGTXN✨