Don't Ever Let Go [A Touken Fiction]

Chapter 19 : The Crying Ghost

A/N: I'm back!!!!!!! And SORRY!!!!!!!! I've got lots of things to deal with lately. School's started and I've been busy..... watching Bleach..... Sorry..... And yesterday I found this acoustic English version of Unravel. Maybe some of you've heard it before but I have to say it's FREAKING AWESOME!!! I just love the singer's voice, and the lyrics!! Anyway, here's chapter 19!! please enjoy!!!

"I don't care what you are. Ghosts, spirits or demons or whatever. I'm in a super bad mood tonight so you'd better flee before I even got up there." She muttered, and headed for the top of the building.

But she didn't want to go alone so she decided to go wake Kaneki up and accompany her.

She went to his room, and stopped there.

She hesitated.

Touka grabbed the doorknob, but didn't twist it. Her hand stopped there like it was frozen. She bit her lower lip and twisted it and pushed it open.

But she didn't notice the door wasn't even closed and fell forward and hit the floor.

"Mother fu--" She was about to swear as she looked up, and her eyes widened slightly. Though it was dark, she could still tell there was something wrong in this room.

She stood up and turned on the lights, and her eyes widened even more. The room was rather messy, unlike her room, and there were weird paintings all over the wall.

She walked near one of them and had a better look of it, and she gasped. It was the painting of Kaneki as a ghoul eating a dead body. She looked at the second one, and she gasped again, it was her as a ghoul with her Ukaku behind her left shoulder like fire. And the third one, it was her as well. The forth one, still her. The fifth one, still her....

Touka finished looking at all the paintings. She stood in the middle of Kaneki's room, feeling shocked, angry, pissed, sad, and a little bit happy....

She looked up at the ceiling, searching for more paintings, and she found them. One of them was Hinami's sketch, the one that she drew after she walked out of the pain of losing her family.

And there were two more, both of them had Kaneki and herself on it. One was a painting of Kaneki hugging herself, and the other one made her so shocked that she couldn't help but drop to her knees.

It was Kaneki and herself again. The background was plain, and both of them looked like angels, but they were eating each other, like both of the two wanted to own each other completely, but using a too-over way that made both of two look greedy and ghoulish.

Touka stared at that painting, shaking. Her lips were trembling slightly. "Kaneki.... what've you been through.....? What've changed you so much....? What've I done to make you suffer so much....?" She whispered.

And she heard it. The voice.

She stood up, and left the room. She walked toward the stairs slowly, and started climbing upstairs. Every step she took made her feel worse. Her limbs felt numb, her head was spinning, everything seemed to go crazy at the moment.

She slowly pushed open the door and arrived at the roof.

The scenery was pleasant and peaceful. There were only a few cars on the street, making them look wider than usual. She looked up at the sky.

"It's a crescent moon tonight..." She whispered, and she turned at a corner, and he saw him.

Kaneki was leaning at the bars, looking up at the sky as well, and didn't notice her.

She walked a bit closer, and stood next to a wall. She could hear him singing.

"If I spilled my guts..... The world would never look at you the same way...... And now I'm here to give you all my love........
So I can watch your face as I take it all away......" She looked at him.