TRIGGER WARNING
I'll break the silence
And watch it fall in pieces
The aftermath of passive violence
Then "he said that she said she cheated"
And oh, I got a feeling
I think you should know
The emerald eyed man remembers the day like it was yesterday. The day everything changed. The day where his life turned upside down, the day where his heart got ripped out his body and his tears wouldn't stop flowing. The day where he came home to find his Draco in bed with another man.
I'm trying to find hope
There's nothing left to hold
I'm stuck down here in this hole
I'll dig my way out
He remembers opening the door and seeing the love of his life thrusting into another man, he remembers the tears rolling down his cheeks as he screamed at the grey eyed man. He tried so hard to believe it wasn't true but he knew his eyes didn't lie.
I'll stand just like a statue
Just like you
Acting like the sky's just about to fall
With everything I can't do
I can't move
In the end I'll find my way back home
(Find myself at home)
He screamed so much that night,till his throat burned but it seemed that the grey eyed man didn't take effect to it. He remembers packing his bags and leaving to his friends house where he spent the days sobbing into their arms. He knew there was no looking back. He tried so hard to move on, he really did but he couldn't, everytime he looked into another mans eyes he saw Draco's face flash before him.
Just say something
Don't leave me here with nothing
I know I deserve more than this
The self-destruction
I'll think 'till I can't function
I should've seen it coming to this
Days flew by, he bought another flat and spent his days away wallowing in self pity, chugging down alcohol like there was no tomorrow, sobbing till his eyes couldn't hold themselves open anymore.
They say it's not having this
And you're one shot 'till it's all over
Say it "I just want out"
Just let your words wash over me
And oh, a sinking feeling
The flash fire's gone out
He slowly become depressed pushing those who loved and cared for him away, isolating himself. Sitting in dark corners, his bloodshot eyes reminded him how stupid he was thinking Draco could've wanted him,could've loved him,like the way he loved the blond.
I'm trying to find hope
There's nothing left to hold
I'm stuck down here in this hole
I'll dig my way out
He pushed everyone away till he was left alone with only himself and his thoughts for comfort. He rarely left the house,only occasionally if needed be. He got his groceries and everything delivered to him, after all he was the saviour of the wizarding world. No one heard from him anymore. He never picked up the phone and he never owled anyone. He broke his radio cause he couldn't stand the happy cheerful music that blared from it.
I'll stand just like a statue
Just like you
Acting like the sky's just about to fall
With everything I can't do
I can't move
In the end I'll find my way back home
(Find myself at home)
All his friends tried visiting him but he stopped opening the door ages ago. They tried to break in but he had spells guarding it. They tried so hard to make the raven haired man happy again but no matter what they did he never smiled. They haven't heard his laugh since ages, they haven't seen those emerald green eyes light up nor twinkle with happiness.
