Please, I Can Change

Chapter 4

((Hey everyone! I have returned from the depths of hell intact.... Nah I just got home from school. 6 hour flight and im TIRED, But SUMMER IS HERE!))

I couldn't face them all today. Today's world conference was being held in Belgium, so I did not have to go that far. Lucky to know if I ever needed to run out again I guess. I couldn't be arsed to put on my usual cloak and pants so I put on a simple pair of navy skinny jeans and white t-shirt with a charcoal hoodie over. Stumbling to the bathroom, I tiredly brushed my hair and looked at myself in the mirror. Decent, I thought, I mean, it wasn't as good as I usually looked but I didn't really care.

Creeping across the landing, I could hear Monaco making breakfast in the kitchen. I sighed, I really didn't want to see her since that incident, so I would have to go without. The wooden floorboards creaked as I turned the doorknob and made a run to my car.

During the journey, I thought about how everyone would react to seeing me again. Over the past few days, I hadn't talked to anyone and had stayed in my room alone so I didn't have to talk.

Big brother. You are back, fratello! *Edges away scared*

Francis. Good to see you again *turns away and ignores me*

France-san.... You are feeling better?

Hey, look who it is again! Dude, you look awful...

Frog... Why are you here?

You don't look very well. You buy medicine from me, aru!

I know how you feel, da?~

I just wanted to sit there the whole time and blend in with everything. I didn't feel like talking, doing work, or at least doing anything

*Time skip*

Getting out of the car, I braced myself for one of the most nervous moments of my life. I really didn't want to do this, but I was required to be there, and could end up much worse. Everyone was in there already and stared at me as I entered, breaking the silence. I rolled my eyes, great, just great. I didn't look at anyone as I found a seat, and looked down.

"So then, shall we... get started. If everyone is okay?" Germany looked at me and I felt every other nations gaze boring into me.

"Go for it" America said, and he stood up to take a register. Some of the African nations couldn't be there due to sickness and had no means of transport anyway

" Germany, Italy, Japan?" Three voices said yes.

"Myself, Britain, China, Russia and uh... France?" I made a small "Uh huh" to signal yes, as the other countries spoke.

" Canada, Mexico, Brazil, Chile?" Four more countries

" Nordics?"

"All here!" Matthias yelled.

"Belgium, Netherlands, Switzerland, Liechtenstein, Spain,  Romano, Portugal, Poland?" They all said yes.

"Baltics, Ukraine and Belarus?"

"Da! They all came with me!" Ivan aid.

" Okay... Prussia, Austria, Hungary, Greece and Turkey?" Everyone was there. He went through the Middle East nations and the Asian nations before he nodded at Germany to start.

" Thank you America. Now does anyone have any issues to raise?" He said

" I want to be a country!" Peter (Sealand) yelled.

"Who the hell let you in here?! Get out you wanker!" Arthur tood up to get him out.

"I'm here becuase I am a country, Jerk England!" He challenged.

"No you are not. Shut up for once, goddammit." I spoke loudly and that shut everyone up.

"Okay, thank you France. " He had started to call me by my nation name now "Now any real issues that are actually relevant? Ludwig said.

"I got one!" Laura (Belgium) said and everyone turned to her.

"We-ell. I'm sure everyone agrees but I'm getting kinda tired of all the strikes in... France right now. I mean, the channel tunnel, petrol and you know, things like that..." She tailed off as she looked at me.

" Sorry. I can't do anything, because my country is shit, with stupid shit people in..." I snapped.

((NO IT ISN'T. FRANCE IS AWESOME ))

" Well okay then. That was all anyway." She said.

"I need water. Excuse me..." I pushed back my chair and walked out silently.

Getting my water, I sighed and sat down. I didn't notice Arthur come over to me, but when I did, I rolled my eyes.

"What is up with you, Frog?" He knelt down and looked at me.

"Nothing. Its nothing to do with you."

"Hey, I really hate you... You are so stupid you know?" He laughed, trying to be playful.

"Huh, I was thinking the exact same thing about myself."

"Tell me what is wrong... I hate you,  but I don't want to see you like this, France" His smile disappeared and he touched my right arm. I gasped as he touched the scars. His eyes grew as he rolled back my sleeves and was taken aback by the long red, dry scars that covered my arms. Shaking his head, I noticed tears forming in the corners of his eyes.

"Frog, what have you done?"

((So the next chapter might make you cry or idk. I will be updating more frequently because I hate to be late. I'm a paranoid person ya know. Next chapter,  I'm trying to make the next few as sad as possible. Bye!))