Please, I Can Change

Chapter 11

I can't forget that nightmare that I had

It was the worst feeling that I have ever had.

I woke up early this morning and stayed in my room. Today I just didn't feel like eating so I just left it for now. I know that there is a G8 conference today but I can't be arsed to show my face to them. My vision was blurry so I rubbed my eyes and made my way downstairs. As I walked into the kitchen, someone caught my sight in the corner of my eye. Arthur was there making tea.

I rolled my eyes. "Bonjour Arthur.. What are you doing here?" I said quietly mumbling

"I just thought that I should come see you. You know, see how you are" He poured the tea into two mugs and bought them over to the sofa where I was sitting "Would you like anything to eat?" I bit my lip.

"Erm... No thanks" I replied

"Have you actually been eating?" He tilted his head and looked at me suspiciously

"Yes I have." I looked at him, challenging his frowns

"Oh okay then." He sipped his tea

He left for the meeting, and told me to come as well. He said that it would be good to see everyone again. I refused, for I didn't feel like I wanted to see anyone apart from him until I was recovered. I just didn't want them to see me as the poor, depressed victim. I didn't want any of that treatment.

I was to meet Arthur tonight, to wait for him at the back of the meeting hall, so that I wasn't discovered. He shrugged when I told him that I didn't want to see anyone.

It was 21:34 and I was to meet him at 21:40, so I wasn't worried.

21:48 now. Where was he?

I heard talking as the other members came out of the hall. They were most likely to go for a drink afterwards.

22:03. It doesn't look like he is coming. I sighed and made my way out to go home. There was a beautiful park that I always used to pass. It was so comforting during the evening and I loved to take slow walks through there after the meetings to clear my head and relax. I decided to go through there this time and walked through the entrance.

There were other people there but I just thought they were just humans. I stopped in my tracks and went pale as I saw who they were.

They were kissing.... Alfred and Arthur. I didn't say anything but I just went pale. They saw me after they had pulled away.

Arthur gasped as he saw me "F-Francis... Please! I-I..." He widened his eyes and his lips started to tremble. Alfred didn't say anything and didn't look in my direction.

I backed away and tears filled my eyes. I didn't want to be betrayed like this. I hated Arthur. He was the worst thing that happened to me.