Life As A Big Girl

Chapter 17

The most miserable people are those who care only about themselves, understand only their own trouble and see only their own perspective. ~Unknown

Marcus POV

I was left there shocked after the scene that took place. Am I sorry, I don't know? Her pussy was so good, it was hard pulling out. This affair has been going on for about two years. At first, we were drunk and she was confiding in me, but then it became on and off. She was just another fuck, but I kinda started catching feelings. Now I am stuck with her and this baby. I asked her to get rid of the baby, but she couldn't do it. 

I looked at Sha and picked her up. We needed to get out of her before the police came. "Come on Sha. Damn man got me about to fight over you. Need to learn how to keep your legs close," I said. "What you mean me. It takes two to fuck. I didn't say anything when you put your pinker dinker inside of me. On top of that, not wrap out or pull out. Fuck you, I am so through with you," Sha said. "You wasn't saying that last night when I had on your knees. So fuck that shit. Now get your ass on. Fucking up my day, I got something for that ass when we get to my house," I said.

Sometimes I want to smack the shit out of her. She just doesn't get it. She keeps saying that she is through with me, but always lands her ass back into my sheets and riding my dick. Anyways, we went by Popeye's and got the $5 Big Box and headed to my place. 

When finally made it home. I was ready to get away from her and all the bullshit she putting me through. I felt it was best that I light one up in my office. Sha might get mad because she's pregnant, but I need to relieve some stress. Fuck My Life!!

Sha POV

At this point, I am at my breaking point, to be honest. I lost the most important people in my life and I am stuck with this selfish bastard. I cringe at the fact that he could be the father of my child, but something keeps me coming back to him every time. I don't know what it is, maybe it's looks or his lavish lifestyle or just maybe it is his sex game. Whatever it is has a hold on me and on top of that I'm stuck with his baby.

I got up from the couch as I was walking towards the room Marcus and I sleep in I smelled weed coming from Marcus's office. That selfish bastard knows I get sick off of that smell. I Sped walked to the bathroom to release everything that was on my stomach. I slide down to the floor and started to cry my eyes out. How the hell did I get here?

I looked up and saw the pain pills I was given when I was in the hospital. Evil thoughts were running through my mind. It was a tug of war with my mind. Call me a punk bitch, I'm just ready to give up. Then I looked down at my stomach. The only sane thing that was holding me together. I couldn't kill my baby. My whole life may be fucked up, but one thing you can't do is question my love for the baby that inside of me. 

I wiped the tears from my eyes and started to strip down. I looked in the mirror and seen somebody that I haven't seen in a very long time. A weak woman. A weak woman, but this time carrying a bundle of joy. I may act stupid and party with this child like I don't care, but I still love it. I hopped in the showers and let the water wash away the dirty feeling. As the tears rolled down my eyes, I started to sing Aaliyah's song At Your Best.

Let me know, let me know
Ah, ha, let me know, let me know
Let me know

When I feel what I feel
Sometimes it's hard to tell you so
You may not be in the mood to learn what you think you know

There are times when I find
You want to keep yourself from me
When I don't have the strength
I'm just a mirror of what I see

But at your best you are love
You're a positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know

Know
Let me know

When you feel what you feel
Oh, how hard for me to understand
So many things have taken before this love affair began
But if you feel, oh, like I feel
Confusion can give way to doubt
For there are times when I fall short of what I say,
What I say I'm all about, all about

But at your best you are love
You're a positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know

Tell me what it is (tell me what it is)
Make believe, no need to make believe
Look beyond your own (look beyond your own)
Try and find place for me
Try and find another place for me

'Cause
At your best you are love
You're a positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know

Let me know, let me know, let me know, oh
Hah, hah, hah, ha
See, stay your best baby

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First off I hope you all had a safe and wonderful 4th of July. Sorry, it took so long to bring in a new chapter. My two classes decided to give me two units to do. I didn't turn in my work until late last night, but I did not forget about you guys. 

This chapter was just a filler for all the characters. Next chapter, it is about to go down. HEHE, new people going to come in the picture. 

Thirdly, you guys have spoken and wanted to me to do point of views to make it more personal. Thanks for all the support you guys. 

Check out my other books called 50 Shades of Emotions and Sex Ain't Betta Than Love. Those books are a work in progress as well. 

Don't forget to vote and comment. Always remember we are beautiful creatures that God has created. See your inner beauty and promise it will shine on the outside. It will illuminate on the outside and people won't help to say you are beautiful. 

Love you guys 

Megan💖💖