The Boy Next Door (UNCONTINUED)

Chapter 26

Anna’s POV;  

That night was carved into my mind, the night that Louis dared Zayn to tell the truth about his feelings for me and so he did. This night was now a year and 10 months ago. The last time we spoke was a little more than a year ago. Well, Zayn had tried to get in touch with me again 10 months ago but I ignored him, I was not going back to that again, the pain, the sleepless nights, the waiting for him to call, no, I didn’t want that back. After that night he had confessed his feelings to me we saw eachother about 3 more times and all times it was like we were together, as in fully together, kissing, sleeping together, everything. But since august 2011 I haven’t seen him anymore and I haven’t talked to him since 2 months after that. October 2011, the last time I spoke to my best friend for my whole life, the one I grew up with, the one I was deeply in love with, the one I was supposed to be with, but instead.. instead he chose to not call me anymore and go be together with someone else. I was sitting in my room going through the box of memorabilia I kept hidden in the back of my closet, memoribilia of that boy, the one that till today still has my heart but I don’t have his, or at least, I don’t think I have. Losing him caused me a lot of pain and I still wasn’t over it and I doubt I ever will. I remember our last conversation as it were yesterday. He told me it was better if we parted as friends instead of trying to make a relationship work. He was too busy, missed my calls, couldn’t come visit me and he didn’t want to drag me through that. I understood but it did still hurt, especially when a few months later it turned out he was dating this girl from that new Xfactor band, Perrie something. She seemed like a nice girl but it stabbed me in the heart, how could he be with her, did he forget about me that fast? How could he get it to work with her and not me? Or was I just not interesting enough anymore once he became famous? I’ll probably never know the truth. In february 2012 my parents told me a big secret, my dad, the one I grew up with, wasn’t really my dad, that day, that day I really needed him and he was right there, he was home but he didn’t come, he promised he’d stay there for me but he never did. He send me a letter a few weeks after the secret came out and him finding out from his parents but I never read it, I torched it. Why, why now get in touch and not all the other times?! Screw him! Mark, Mark was the one who was there for me and adventually I fell for him and now, 10 months later we’re living together and I’m incredibly happy, but my heart, my heart will always belong to Zayn, me first in everything.