Free Falling {Gus De St Jeor FanFic} (#Wattys2016)

Chapter Eighteen

Makenna's POV:

"So," Gus says as I climb back through my window. "What do you say? Will you please take me back?"

I look from my feet to Gus and then back. My heart pounds inside my chest, as my brain runs in circles. I'm not sure what to do or how to feel. My mind says he's no good for me. . . But my heart wants him. I rub my arm, something I do when I'm nervous. Gus watches my every move as he unzips his sweatshirt.

I sigh, "Gus. . . I'm not sure."

His small smile drops as he tosses me his sweatshirt. I can tell that there is pain present on his face and he isn't happy about my answer. I catch his sweatshirt and hold it in my arms. He plops down in the chair next to the window we had just come in through. I look at Gus, who runs his hand through his hair. I can tell he's angry. I hate making him angry, but I'm not totally sure I am ready to take him back into my life.

"Why did I even try?" His voice surprises me.

"Gus-"

"No, Makenna. Why did I even try on trying to get you back in my life?!" He snaps standing up. "I love you to the moon and back and I screwed up! I know that! But do you honestly think that I'm ever going to stop falling for you?! Answer me that! Do you ever think you'll ever stop falling for me?!"

I'm shocked at how angry he got and how little it took him to get as mad as he did. I look at the 6'1 boy standing in front of me. His eyes looked angry, but I could tell somewhere that there was something holding him back from completely screaming and yelling at me.

"You tried because you screwed up. It was never a guarantee that I would get back together with you in a snap of someone's fingers! Gus, you don't understand how much you hurt me, do you?" I step closer to him. "Exactly. You have no idea how much you hurt me! Gus, god. . . I love you so much, but am I ready to go back to you this fast? I'm not sure. Not one bit."

"M. . . " He whispers out. "Do you ever think we'll ever stop falling for each other?"

I look up at his flawless face. I brush his hair out of his face, making him open his eyes. A tear falls down with a blink and I press my thumb onto it, to stop it. He doesn't look at me as a few more tears fall. I had never seen the super sensitive side of Gus, but here it is. . . completely exposed to me.

"Gus. . . We may stop falling one day," I say as I wipe another tear away. "We may fall for someone else soon."

"M, don't say that." He responds.

"Gus," I say searching his face. "You never will know what happens. Life is scary. Falling in love is one of the scariest things" He lays a hand in the small of my back, pulling me closer to him. "Gus, out of all the things in then world, love is the craziest. We'll keep falling until we are caught by that special someone. You seen what happened with Kyrstal and I. You had both of us. You fell for me but you still liked her and you chose to hurt me. I understand that it was a moment of weakness, but what if happens again?"

"M," He pushes the hair out of my face and his eyes burn into mine. "It would never happen again. I hate knowing that I hurt the girl that I have been falling for. I screwed up so bad. . . I can't stop myself from falling for you. M, please don't give me a reason to force myself to stop."

I grab his hand which reaches my cheek. I smile and laugh slightly, although I am crying. He rubs his thumb over the falling tears and rubs small circles. His hazel eyes watch mine as we stare at each other. I can't help but lean my forehead against his chest. His six one figure prevents me from resting my forehead on his forehead. Gus moves his arms to my back pulling me into a hug. I instantly wrap my arms around his torso and I hug him back.