Free Falling {Gus De St Jeor FanFic} (#Wattys2016)

Chapter Six

Now that I'm without your kisses, I will be needing Stitches

Gus' POV:

"Gus, you need to come out." Rocky says for the fourth time.

"No, I just want to be left alone," I say wiping my eyes one more time.

"She wasn't trying to hurt you." I hear Rydel say, which causes me to groan.

"So original, Rydel." I reply sarcastically, my voice thick with tears.

I hear footsteps walking away, but soon the door is being opened by none other than Rydel.

"Your mother had a spare key." She says, throwing it at me.

"Thanks mom.." I reply sarcastically, tears still streaming down my face.

"Gus, come here." Rydel says, holding out her arms as I collapse into them, hugging her tightly as I cry.

I don't want to cry in front of the girl, who told me to even go after Makenna, but there is no way to stop the tears. Rydel comforts herself on my bed, knowing that my breakdowns can last a while. She starts to rub circles in my back.

"Rydel, she snapped at me. I really like her. I'm not even sure if she likes me back. Why does it hurt so much?" I sniffle as she pets my hair.

"Love hurts. One of the hardest things in the world is letting go of what you thought was real. Gus, we can tell that she has feelings for you. It's hard for her to decide on how she feels, without her mom knowing. Gus, you need to know, love sucks. It always does. You and Abigail didn't work out. You are going to fall in love again, you just have to believe that. I know that you can't fly with a broken wing, let alone love with a broken heart. Gus, you need to let her go. She left you wanting more. Gus, you mean the world to her. If all else fails, you need to let her go. You only know you love her, when you let her go," Rydel says only making me cry harder.

Rydel rubs my back, hoping to make the tears stop falling. They don't. After a while, the door opens again. The bed dips down several times, before a couple of bodies lay on me, or next to me. I curl up closer to Rydel, not wanting to be around anyone else. Another hand lands on my head. I look up, to see Riker looking down at me. He ruffles my hair, making a small smile tug on my lips. I remove my face, which still had tears streaming down it, to look around. Ross and Rocky were curled up by my legs, Gates was on my lap, smiling his toothless smile, Ryland was sitting next to me, Gil was sitting in Rocky's lap, and Gordy was sitting on Rydel's other knee.

"Gus, are you okay?" Gates asks sweetly.

I pause for a moment. Let him know what I really am going through, or just tell him how exactly I feel? He's only eight, and I'm not sure that he would understand. I look down at him, tears still falling.

"I'm not sure."

And I know I'm telling the truth. I'm not sure how I feel.

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I wake up, still in Rydel's arms. I don't know what time it is, or how much time I have to get ready for tonight. I look up at Rydel, who looks down. She has a sad look on her face. I raise an eyebrow.

"You cried yourself to sleep. Ross and Riker talked to mom. She's worried about you. She thinks. . . She thinks that you are obsessed with this girl," Rydel says petting my hair.

"I'm not. She just amazes me. I keep falling for her. The more I get to know her, the more things I love about her. Rydel, the more I hang out with her, the things I find to like about her. Like her laugh, her smile, her eyes, her small little dimples, and how her nose crinkles when someone kisses it." I say earning a laugh from Gates' bed.