It's Complicated Loving A Jackass(boyxboy)

Chapter Six

Chapter Six

Kay POV

I sat in the living room staring at the blank white wall as I sipped on a bottle of tequila that I hid from Sasha in my room, and drowned my damn sorrows and frustration. I wanted to pull my damn hair out, but settled on taking another sip from the bottle of tequila instead.

Why'd he do it, he knew how I felt about him and still.... He did it. Did he see me as a joke, was I a fucking game to him. I unconsciously let my finger tips touch my bottom lip and I groaned leaning back on the couch. He.... Kissed me, he fucking kissed me and I didn't even know why I was mad about it. Shouldn't I be thrilled, doesn't it mean that he's interested, that he feels something even if it's just a small pull? Was it because his lips were probably on that brainless woman that follows him around like a puppy dog? Or was it because how fucking much he stretched out he was straight? Was it because when he kissed me I felt like I was seventeen again? Was it because-

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard the sound of keys before the front door opened and I cursed before quickly hiding away the bottle of alcohol and popping a piece of gum in my mouth. Sasha seemed a bit startled to see me on the couch.

"Jesus you scared me. I thought you weren't home, didn't you hear me knocking on the door? I couldn't find my keys and-" He paused for a moment and I looked at him for a spilt second because I didn't want him to know I was drinking, he'll probably try to send me to a fucking mental shrink to build up my fucking will to scoff down some water instead of intoxicating my soul. "Ok what's wrong"?

"Nothing". I said quickly and I thank god I didn't slur my words. Despite my confident answer Sasha still settled next to me on the couch.

"I know you Kay and I know when something is bothering you. You've been acting weird since last week when you took me home from the fair".

"I'm fine I'm just tired".

"What happened between you and Johnny"?

"Nothing happened".

"Than why did you stop hanging out with him"?

"What's with all the questions? Why is it weird if I want some time alone"? He arched at brow at that before he narrowed his eyes.

"What type of gum is that"? He asked suddenly.

"Um mango... Mint". I uttered slowly and he frowned before he stood up abruptly making me jump a bit.

"Jesus Kay, where is it?"

"Where's what? What the hell are you talking about?"

"The alcohol Kay, where's the alcohol?" I groaned dragging a hand down my face.

"What's the big deal-"

"The big deal. The big deal is that You promised me you were going to stop drinking, I just wish you would come talk to me instead-"

"No I did not say I would stop drinking I promised you I wouldn't get drunk off my ass and I'm not. I'm practically sober I barley even drunk a quarter of the bottle". I lied, but what was a little white lie compared to a bigger one.

"Well I guess that relies on how big the bottle actually is".

"God Sasha if I need your help I'll ask ok, but I'm fine I promise ok I just..... I needed a little drink to get me through the day where's the harm in that". He didn't say anything just nodded before he headed to his room, which I assumed was to change out of his work clothes but when he slammed his door I knew it was more than that.

I didn't see what the big deal was, so I just shrugged off his attitude and while I was at it I took a few more shots of tequila to get them both off my mind.
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