The Boy And His Secrets [REALLY SLOW UPDATES]

The Test.

5:00 P.M. with Jack.
It wouldnt have mattered if I went to school anyway. I never go on Tuesdays. Why?
Today was a different reason than normal.
I have 'problems' as Roxy says.
She says there normal.
I take pills.
Thye don't help.
Why would they?
All they do is make Anti 'Drunk.'
He slurs and such.
I sat on my bed, looking at the ceiling.
My life was like the ceiling.
No matter what, it never changed.
You could colour it.
Same shapes. Same feel.
You could cover it.
Same inside.
You could brake it.
But it would never fix.
Nothing could fix me. Im broken.
Im usless.
No one needs a broken ceiling.
No on needs a broken Jack.
So why do I want to live?
Why do I feel like life is better?
What would be the point of going on? I don't know.
I can't find it.
Its starting to weigh me down.
Starting to slow me.
Weaken me.
Weaken my hearts will to beat.
Weaken my lungs will to breath.
Weaken my stomachs will to digest.
I don't eat any more.
Why would I?
Its my way of killing my self without doin anything.
When I visit Roxy, I lie to her.
How?
I lie about my weight.
How?
I have weights in my pockets.
Inside jacket pockets carry my weights.
.....
Why do I burden other peoples lifes?
They like living, but I come and ruin it.
Ruin it.
Like I ruin everything.
Everything.
I.
Do
Ruins.
So why do it?
Why live on, when no one would care if I disappeared.
Im gonna test the theory.
No home.
Ha like he'll miss me.
No store.
Marry might miss me talking to her abit. Not likly,
Someone else will talk to her.
No. School.
Felix and Cry will hate it.
Maybe I can tell them about my experiment.
They wouldn't tell.
There the ones who do care.

Jack:
Cry are you with Felix?

Cry:
Yup whats up? And if I over heard correctly the pink haired guy was kinda worried about ya. Me nd fefe were to. Where were u?

Jack:
Long story short, favor is needed.

Cry:
Preech.

Jack:
Im gonna have a test so to say.
Im gonna "disapear" for a few days, and see who cares.
I trust you and Felix, and don't want you two to worry K?
Just, keep it between us.

Cry:
Felix says we require to meet up once a day.
I say its cool, but I like the idea of making sure your alive. K?

Jack:
Forest. Abandond 7/11?

Cry:
K....
What if anyone asks?
Like Mark, i think it was.

Jack:
Tell him youd don't know.
You two have no idea that im ok. K?

Felix has joined the kik party.

Felix:
JACK. YOU PROMISE ON HATS THAT YOU WILL VISIT US ONCE A DAY?

Cry:
You mean Hateis? Like the god?

Felix:
NO HATS LIKE THE THING ON YOUR HEAD

Jack:
Promise on hats, and jackets.

Felix:
Ok.

Jack:
Ive gotta go, bye;)

Cry/Felix:
Bye.

I set my phone down, and grabbed my backpack.
I dumped the few things inside it on the floor, and carried it to my closet.