fuck his promises. || jc caylen

five,

After orchestra get's out we have lunch most of the time all the Sophomores, Juniors and Seniors leave campus so it's mainly only Freshman but I decided to stay I didn't really feel like leaving and hanging out with anyone. I sat behind the school and let the sun lay on my face, I close my eyes and lean my head back against the bricks.

"Hey you're LaurensWorld!"

an// i have no idea if anyone has a YouTube like that just go w/ it

I hear someone yell right as I was getting comfortable, "Uhh yeah.." I say with my eyes squinting in the direction of the voice. I see a girl probably about 14 so obviously a freshman, she had a black skater skirt, all black vans, and a white The 1975 crop top on. "I love your videos!" She says exited getting closer to me as I stand up "What do you plan to do after graduation?!" She exclaims with big bright eyes looking up at me. I was thinking of just not saying anything and asking if she just wanted to take a picture or something but instead I thought I should tell her.

"Umm well I'm moving out to California to join O2L." I say with a smile. "Awesome!" she yells to close to my ears, "Are you gonna fall in love with one of the guys?! Trevor? No he's a little older than me, what about Sam?! He's a sweetie.. ohhhhh maybe Kian?! Lian!! I ship it! WAAAit nooo Jc you're gonna fall in love with Jc! Lac maybe?? No! Jen!! That's cute I ship Jen."

"Uhh I don't really know.." I mumble
"Well anyways I'm exited for Jen to happen." She smiles "Can I have a picture?" She asks me handing me her phone, "Sure." I say smiling light to her.

After letting what had just happen sink into my head lunch was almost about over so I decided to make it to my next class, French I already know Aj told Lexi that I tried to throw up, I rolled my eyes to the thought of it.

I step into the classroom and take my seat no one was in the room yet which was nice, I started thinking of packing and if maybe I would fall in love with Jc.. probably not, he's too perfect for me.

French goes by fast surprisingly, and also Lexi and Aj didn't bring up the whole bulimic topic which was nice not to think about for a while.

English was a snore and Science was somewhat interesting but a Mr.Pattison lost me probably mid way of his 10th sentence. Once the bell rings I quickly rush out of that room to Aj's car waiting for her and Lexi. They show up not so long after and first drive Lexi home than Aj drops me off.

I start grabbing my stuff and thanking her for the ride and right as I was about to grab my phone off the seat she firmly grabs my wrist. "Ow fuck Aj let go."

"Damn, you can't even stay clean for our last couple weeks of high school" She says leaving a bruise on my wrist as I slam her car door shut and she drives off.

I lift up my sleeve some bit already seeing two day old scars and I was already hating this, I lift up my sleeve a tiny bit more and see the bruising start to form. "Fuck" I mumble under my breath. I quickly roll down my sleeve and walk up to my front door unlocking it with my key and hoping my dad wasn't home, which thank god my prayers were answered. I grab a couple water bottles and lock myself in my bedroom throwing my backpack on the ground, I change into a comfy oversized sweatshirt and some volleyball shorts  (even though I've never played volleyball) I sit down at my desk and turn on my Mac, I look down at my phone and seeing all these hate tweets I decided to delete Twitter for now, I'll re-download it. I then play
Anarchy In the U.K // Sex Pistols to pump me up for finishing editing this video that needed to be uploaded by tomorrow, thank God tomorrow is Friday I think to myself.

an// it is 3 in the morning again but whatever i like writing these for some odd reason, and i do listen to these songs I add in btw. k bye