fuck his promises. || jc caylen

eight,

warning this chapter has selfharm.

I throw my nasty sticky clothes in the dirty clothes and grab my robe, I walk into my bathroom, looking at my stomach to see fat but also bruises already starting to from. I grab a ring box, you know the little box a wedding ring or something of that sort comes in, you know exactly what I mean.

I open it and inside is my collection of razors, I close my eyes and grab one. I close my box and stare at the blade, I then feel the cold medal on my skin and race it across, I wince but then feel relief.

4 slits for Erin,Madison,Kenize,Aj
3 slits for my fat body
2 slits for my father
1 slit for hating everything about me.

My left arm is now filled with blood and I decided to get up and shower. I take a quick shower hoping out and dressing in a Halsey 'Badlands' shirt and Nike pj shorts.

I then call Trevor back praying that he'd answer. I'm looking at my arm as I here my name being called.

"Hey Trev.. Sam?" I say looking confused, "Uhh yeah hey!" He says waving his hand. "Um hey, so were's Trevor?" I say still confused.
"He's in the bathroom, I heard his laptop ringing so I decided to answer it, you know I watch your videos, you're pretty hot."
"Sam?! What are you doing get out of here!" Trevor says pushing him out of his room and locking the door. "Sorry about him I hope he wasn't to much."
"Uh no not at all." I laugh.

Trevor and I talk about o2l, California and making a whole new start. I look down at my phone seeing it was midnight and I could here the front door opening and stumbling up the stairs. "Fuck" I mumble under my breath. "What is it?!" Trevor asks sounding worried. Before I could get to the door my dad burst in. "What did I say about being up this late?!" He yells
"I know dad I'm sorry it wo-" I got cut off by a hand leaving a painful sting on my face. "Get the fuck to bed." He says with a deep voice slamming my door.

I almost start to break down but then I remember I was still on Skype with Trevor. "Lauren..?" "Look Trevor I have to get to bed, please don't tell the other guys, we will talk about this later." I say smiling into the camera. We say our goodbyes and I turn off my light slowing climbing into bed as I can here some bitch in the kitchen with my father probably getting high as hell.

I feel a tear roll down my face but I quickly rub it off my face and slowly fall   asleep.

an // I know I'm sorry this is kind of a short chapter but there is more to come. ❤️