fuck his promises. || jc caylen

seven,

Kirra pulls up to a fancy dress store we have in town and we all walk in. My stomach turns when I see Erin and Madison trying on dresses. "NO NO NO I ASKED FOR THIS IN BUBBLEGUM PINK! NOT LIGHT PINK! FIND ME BUBBLEGUM PINK!" Erin yells throwing a beautiful dress and Madison, Madison rushes out of the room.

"Just ignore her, let's start looking." Morgan says turning me to the opposite side of the store.

We got through multiple racks of dresses "Just not finding the right one."  At least in Kirra's words, I then finally pick up a simple black dress, with spaghetti straps, and lacy at the bottom.

"Guys I really like this one." I say taking it off the rack and smiling at Morgan and Kirra. They both look at eachother thinking of if they should tell me the easy or hard way that they didn't like it. "Oh come on, I'm at least going to try it on." I say walking to the changing room.

I take my Doc Martens off along with my dark blue jeans and cropped moron sweater. Taking off my sweater reviled all my scars new ones old ones, all of them. I shutter and slip the dress on, I place my arms behind my back just so Kirra and Morgan don't see my arms.

"Soo..?" I ask walking out of my room, right then and there their jaws drop and I was scared that maybe they saw scars on my legs and I forgot to cover them. "What?? What is it?!" I freak out

"It's nothing Lauren you just look amazing in that dress." Kirra says making me give her a little turn.
"I mean we thought it was just a bad dress but you make it work." Morgan says "Okay go take it off now we can pay and get you home." She say's smiling at me. "Thank You" I mouth to her.

I run back into my dressing room pleased with myself. I take off the dress and throw all my clothes on before I can look myself in the mirror. We pay for it and by now Kirra is "starving" so the two decided to go through the Taco Bell drive thru. "You sure you don't want anything Lauren?" Morgan says looking back at me. "No nah I'm good but thank you." I say smiling at her to look up from my phone. "I mean once you move down with those o2l guys all you're going to eat is Taco Bell and Arizona tea!" Kirra laughs grabbing and paying for their food.

I just roll my eyes and laugh, Kirra and Morgan munch on their food as we drive and I can't stop wanting to throw up, just over the smell of the greasy fast food. I slip up my sleeve and look at just a small part of my arm, I'm a monster I think to myself.

"So Lauren tomorrow's a half day we'll meet ya in the gym? We can grab yearbooks and clean out our lockers before we go to Morgans." Kirra says parking her car in front of my house.

"Um-uh yeah sounds awesome." I stutter grabbing my backpack and getting out of the car. "Hey thanks for everything today guys." I say leaning down to the window.

"Of course. Anyways see you tomorrow so very exited!" Morgan says clapping.

I wave at the car driving off getting smaller and smaller. I sigh once it finally gets out of my vision and turn to my house, I unlock the door with my key and the first step get a punch to the gut.

"Were the fuck have you been?!" My father spat at my balled up body on the ground, him obviously being intoxicated.

"Out with friends.." I try to get out
"What was that!" He yelled kicking me repeatedly. "OUT WITH FRIENDS!" I screech out after what feels like forever.
"Ask me next time, you fucking piece of shit." He says pouring is drink on me and throwing the glass bottle by my head as it shatters every were, and walks out the front door.

After laying on the ground for a couple minutes I get up lock the front door and go to my computer I see that I had a missed Skype call from Trevor and I figured I would call him after I got cleaned up.