The Alphas Second Choice

Chapter One : My Mate

Blake:

My wolf wakes before I do, she's restless wanting to find something. I groan rubbing the sleep from my eyes 'MATE!' my wolf screams. I sit up quickly my heart pounding 'What?' I mindlink to her 'Our mate he's downstairs!' I swallow thickly. Is she right? Is my Mate finally here? I get out of bed quickly to get dressed putting in on black skinny jeans with a white tank top. My hair is brushed then a few coats of mascara. I practically run downstairs through the halls until I reach the kitchen. My wolf calms signaling my Mate isn't here anymore, I sigh running my hand through my hair "Everything okay?" Elizabeth a fellow pack mate asks she rests her hand against my shoulder "Who was here a second ago?" She looks confused , maybe if I find out who was just here ill know who my mate is. "Um alpha Christian and beta Shawn why?" Alpha Christian the name sends tingles down my spine maybe its him? No not possible someone like me doesn't get alpha mates. And beta Shawn is a no since he found his mate a year ago and she's pregnant. "No reason just asking.' Elizabeth nods "There's breakfast ready." she leaves.

My wolf is restless the whole day , all I do is pace and look at every guy I see hoping he's my mate, but he never comes. A small tear runs down my face are i finish my chores, god why did I have to me teased like this? My wolf howls sadly she was sure our mate was here. My mother comes walking up to me wearing her signature bitch look "Blake where is my shirt you washed?" I shrug "I don't know." She sighs dramatically "God why are you so........" she waves her around motioning my body. My mother has always favorited my sister over me , even more since my father passed in a rogue battle 2 years ago. My mother feels im to fat , ugly and not skinny like my younger sister I won't ever find my mate.

"Blake?" My mother stiffens at the voice , its our alpha. My wolf howls happily purring even 'MATE!' she yepls. Im greeted with the scent of pine and mint an intoxicating combination. I almost moan, alpha Christian walks in wearing his signature dark blue jeans and navy blue sweater that hugs all of his muscles just right. "Amelia needs her top where is it?" His tone is harsh it makes my wolf whine slightly. The reason he is asking g me this is because I wash all of our leaders clothes as my chore and Amelia is Christians long time perfect girlfriend. Christian pauses after his words and inhales , his eyes widen as they turn black. 'He knows!' my wolf sings.

He looks over me slowly watching intently "Where is it?" his tone is strained I swallow thickly "I'm not sure i'll have to look for it. " I sound like a mouse. Christian nods then turns to my mother "Hi Carla would you mind leaving us for a moment?" My mom nods "Of course Alpha!" With that she rushes out. Now its just me and him, in this small laundry room which seems to be growing smaller by the minute.

Christian sighs running his hands over his face "Why me?" he spokes to no one in particular. My heart drops he's not impressed by me. I wish I would have lost weight or learned how to apply make up before this "I'm sorry." I don't know why I'm apologizing, maybe he'll feel sorry and accept me. He sighs " Why are you sorry?" Christian moves a few steps closer to me, I shrug looking down "For being fat and ugly." my wolf whines 'Your not fat or ugly!'
Christian pauses then suddenly I'm pinned in the corner by him. He brushes the hair from my neck then inhales deeply in my neck, I'm stunned he wants me. Christian pulls back his eyes are black "Your so beautiful." I blush scarlet and look down Christian kisses my forehead and inhales deeply one again. He sighs and pulls back. Im in awe of my beautiful mate , the man ill marry and have pups with. I can't describe how happy my wolf is she's aching for him to mark us.

"I can't believe your real." I whisper more to myself then him. Christian look at the ground then me "No on can ever find out about this alright?" His tone us harsh and cold. I inhale sharply "What?" Im confused. " I don't want you." My wolf cries out then an awful ache rushes through my chest "But your my mate." A hot tear escapes my eye. "Doesn't matter, Amelia is the who I will spend my life with." Amelia? My stomach turns. "I........" I lose my words I can't speak. My mate doesn't want me. I nod wiping my eyes "If you tell anyone your out of the pack understood?" Christians voice is so cold a sob escapes my mouth. "Okay." I sob more wiping my eyes sniffling "Good." Christian watches me for a few seconds. My tears fall freely I can't stop them "I thought we were meant to be?" He sighs "Maybe, but I could never have loved you." That's the last straw I gasp and shove past him running all the way back to my room.

Hours pass maybe even days , all I do is sob and listen to my wolf howling in pain. She's hurting just like I am.
My sadness slowly turns to anger , Amelia is the reason for this. She just had to throw herself at him two years ago, with her blonde hair and perfect body who wouldn't want her? I sigh rubbing my eyes they are burning from tears.
A small knock on my door comes around 1 in the morning, my wolf stirs and I'm greeted with the scent of my mate. Slowly sitting I don't move , why is he here so late? Another knock comes through this time louder, stronger. I don't think I can handle seeing him. Christian opens the door slowly I can barely see him in the dark, my wolf purrs she's happy he is here. "I know your awake." "Why are you here?" I snap my anger coming back "My wolf is restless." Even in the dark I can tell his watching me intently "Go back to your perfect fucking Amelia maybe that will help." Christian doesn't reply "Please my wolf is hurting" My voice cracks. 'No don't make him leave!' my wolf yelps loudly "I can't go, believe me I'd rather be with Amelia but my wolf won't let me." His words cut deep tears come to my eyes as I move over patting the side next to me. "I always wondered want it be like laying next to my mate." My voice is nothing above a whisper. Christian slowly cautiously climbs in beside me, he's careful not to touch me. My wolf howls happily I relax as well, Christian is tense though. He's obviously not enjoying this 'Touch him'!' my wolf whines but I don't. I'm afraid of him. I lay there watching him , his heat radiating off of him makes me feel safe for some reason. But I can smell her on him , its sickly sweet. A tear escapes then a quiet sob , god why is this so painful?

Christian sighs I feel him face him and put his hand on my waist "No more tears." A kiss to my forehead calms me. I place my hand on his chest feeling his steady heartbeat. "It will get easier." His voice sends shivers down my spine. I shake my head "I don't think it will." I've never felt this way before , it like my chest is going to explode and my stomach tingles.

My eyes get heavy and before I know it I'm drifting to sleep.

A/N

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Sorry for the sucky chapter, it will get better!
P.S. the picture above is Blake!