The Alphas Second Choice

Chapter Three: Heart Ache

Blake:

Four more days of hell, Christian parades around the pack house with his perfect fucking Amelia. Every second kissing,hugging talking about baby names. I even have the honor of helping bake the cake for the wedding. My mother is thrilled to have Luna , completely oblivious to the fact that everyday I die a little more. Christian sometimes meets my eyes from across the room making my heart beat a little faster and me think about being able to love him like Amelia does. But then it's gone and his eyes are cold and full of disgust.

My mother can't stand me even more than usual, she's one me about my weight , face and nails. Telling me quote "No man will ever won't a girl who doesn't take care of themselves." I just nod and don't reply.

The pain is so intense I cut my wrist last night to find some release of my pain. As sick as it sounds it made me feel okay? I wanted to feel physical pain verses the gut wrenching , chest aching I feel very second of every day.
My mind is weak , my body weaker. I can't eat anything. I'm slowly killing myself but I can't help but think maybe I should just end it now. Die young and before Christian marries so I don't have to watch him love her, have kids and live happily without me.

Lydia tries to comfort me constantly but fails , she ends up making me feel worst.
My sister isn't any better she's so full of herself no one else matters.

As I clean up my room my mother comes bursting through the door "Blake?" "Yeah." I sit on my bed folding some clothes "We are doing a cake tasting for Christian and Amelia!" My mom is the baker of the pack , meaning I am her helper.
I groan rubbing my eyes "Do I have to go?" My wolf is dreading having to see them all over each other. "Yes Blake now put something else on, you look like a slave." My mom walks to my small closet pulling out a white flow it top and blue jeans. "Can't Grace help you?" My sister never helps with anything "No she's busy , hurry!" She leave closing the down behind her.

I sigh standing to change , my wrist ache where I cut it. The skin is swollen and red , I put on a thick bracelet to cover it.
I run a brush through my hair quickly , maybe if I look nice he'll want me my wolf curses me for being like that.

Christian and Amelia are sitting on the bar stools in the kitchen , Amelia giggles kissing Christian. My wolf snarls at her , I keep my head down as I walk slowly over to where my mother is "What do you want me to do?" I whisper hoping Christian won't notice I'm here "Here give Amelia this." It's a slice of chocolate cake with raspberry buttercream. "Can't I fill the cakes or something?" I'm dreading having to face them. My mom scoffs handing me the plate "Do it." She scowls turning her back to me.

Amelia grins to Christian as I set the cake down in front of her "What's this?" Her tone is sweet making me hate her even more, I clear my throat trying to avoid Christians gaze "Chocolate cake with raspberry buttercream." She nods gratefully her blonde curls getting in her face , Christian brushes them from her face tucking the strand behind her ear.
My heart sinks I have to look away but I can't I watch every move they make.
Amelia takes a bite "Oh my god this do good." She smiles offering Christian some, he shakes his hand "I'm good." Amelia rolls her eyes eating the bite instead "Can you believe he doesn't like cake!" She looks at me with a smirk on her face.

I try to smile but it doesn't work "Wow." I whisper. I can see Christian from the corner of my eye scowl and roll his eyes.
"Please try to be more respectful to your future Luna, Blake." Christian says in his alpha tone. My eyes find his and I nod "I apologize." Amelia looks down "Leave please." Christian waves his hand towards the door. My eyes widen and I glance to my mother who looks beyond pissed "Alpha I'm so sorry." She rushes over grabbing my arm tighter than needed.
"It's fine, I just don't want her here." His tone is as cold as ice, my wolf whimpers curling back into the ball she's been in for days.

My mother leads me out of the kitchen into the little hallway , Christian follows us with his eyes so does Amelia. They can still see us from where we are but that doesn't stop my mom from slapping me hard across the face. I grab my face wincing "How dare you make a fool out of me." She scowls, a tear runs down my face as I hear Amelia gasp lightly.

"You worthless cow get out of my face." I nod and I feel Christian watching us. God why can't he save me? I look at him quickly , his face is neutral I can't tell what he's thinking. I move quickly past my mother to my room.

My eyes are bloodshot and my cheeks chapped from all my tears. The side where my mother slapped me is still pink and throbbing.
I curl into my warm bed quietly crying , my body shakes from the pain. How am I supposed to live like this? Does it get easier?
My wolf whines quietly hoping to the gods that Christian will change his mind.

I snuggle into my pillow trying to seek any kind of comfort.

Lydia wanders in a little later laying next to me "What happened?" Her tone is soft "My mom." She nods "She's such a bitch." I nod rubbing eye "Have you heard anything from Christian?" My hear pounds a little harder at his name "Nothing good." Lydia sighs smiling "He'll come around." God I hope.

Me and Lydia head down to dinner together , all of the pack crowds into the dinning room chatting, laughing and wrestling it's crazy.
The leaders including Christian are huddled at a table with their mates  having some sort of intense conversation.
"Rogues attacked one of our guards." My eyes widen as Lydia serves herself some casserole, our land is protected by eight guards.

"When?" She shrugs "A couple of hours ago." The last time rogues attacked my father died, this is not good. "Has any of our leaders  said anything?" I grab a roll and water then sit next to Lydia "No but I'm thinking they will say something tonight" I nod tearing a piece of my roll off "That's all your eating?" Lydia looks at me weirdly "Yeah why?" I can't manage anything else , my wolf doesn't even want to eat. "You should have something else." "I'm fine." Lydia purse her lips then takes a bite of her food.

The leaders stand in the front of the dining room, Christian raises his hand signaling for silence. Everyone goes quiet instantly "As I'm sure you all know rogues attacked one of our guards a few hours ago." There are a few gasps then people cursing "From what I heard and the disturbing note we received , rogues plan on attacking us soon." My stomach drops not again.
Everyone gasps some shouting 'why?' Or 'We are going to die this time'
Christian clears his throat "Our army is ready for battle if it comes to that but for now we are on lock down, you all know what that means." Lock down is when no can leave or enter the pack house for 24 hours. A teens my age groan, kids cry why and adults mutter to one another.

Lydia glances at me shocked "I didn't think it was this serious." Her tone is full of panic "I know."
Christian sighs rubbing his hand over his face "Everyone calm down!" His beta Sean calls out , everyone silences.

"Please know that am I trying to prevent another war but I can't guarantee there won't be one." Christians voice comes through strong and powerful "You are all my family and I will do anything to protect each and every one of you." Everyone cheers happily "Know finish dinner than return to your room and make sure to look all windows, door." Christian nods looking around the room before moving back to the his table.

I release a breath I hadn't realized I was holding "I hope nothing happens." Lydia nods "I know." I take a another bite from my roll chewing slowly "You wanna have a slumber party tonight." Lydia asks I nod "Yeah that sounds fun," she smiles happily "Great!"

Maybe that's what I need a little girl time to make me feel a better about everything.

A/N:
Thanks for reading!
Picture above is of Amelia!
Till next chapter......