The Alphas Second Choice

Chapter Two: Really?

Blake POV:

The next morning I feel sick nauseous and dizzy. My heart aches reminding me of my loss, the loss of my mate. How can I face him? Maybe I should leave or find a new mate like he did.

My wolf winces at the idea of having someone other than Christian mark us. But maybe that I need. The thought makes me feel guilty.

Two knocks on my door bring me back to reality "Blake did you die?" My friend Lydia comes in slowly cautiously. Tears well up in my eyes "I'm alive." My voice cracks Lydia rushes over sitting next to me "What happened?" Her tone is panicked I shrug cleaning my throat "Nothing." She scoffs "No somethings wrong!" I shake my head "My mom beginning a bitch as usual." I make my way out of bed heading to the dresser getting clothes to take a shower.

Lydia nods crossing her and over her chest "Well Alpha Christian has an announcement to make supposedly." My heart stops and the tears come back , "What?" Lydia looks at me oddly "Yeah maybe he's going to finally reveal who's our Luna." Luna , that's something I could have been. My wolf howls sadly "I'm going to shower." I whisper walking in the bathroom closing and locking the door behind me.

Christian never leaves my mind , he flashes before my eyes every time I close them. How the hell am I going to forget the feeling of being next to him? The warm water calms me as I wash all the grim off of me. Maybe this will help.
My hair is braided and I have on denim shorts , a lace shirt it's see through and shows my black bra poking through. It's something I usually don't wear but what the hell right? I've already lost my chance at happiness. The thought leaves a sour taste in my mouth.

Lydia is waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs , she smirks at me. "Well well the shirt you swore to never wear!" I manage to lift the corners of my mouth to resemble something of a smile. "Just wanted to try something new." Lydia smiles approvingly "It looks great!" With that she drags me down the sort hallway and into the main living room , everyone is gathered quietly chatting against themselves "Wow I hope Amelia is the Luna she's so beautiful!" someone gushes breaking me a little more.

Me and Lydia stand of to the side along with our friend Bryan, my heart is racing.  I know what hes going to announce. My wolf is whining to herself 'Why us?' she whispers 'I wish I knew' I mindlink back.
Amelia appears in front of the crowd wearing a low cut navy blue sun dress with with pumps , her hair is in beachy waves. Seeing her makes my body shake with anger "Everything okay? " Bryan's voice startles me "Yeah fine."

Amelia smiles victoriously she knows what's going to happen, Christian comes walking from his office looking beyond perfect. He greets her with a kiss the crowd gushes and woops a unwelcomeed tear escapes my eye I quickly wipe it away trying to fight my emotions. "Thank you everyone for being here, me and Amelia have some announcements to make!" Christian is beaming at Amelia it makes me wonder what it would be like to have him look at me like that. "Me and Amelia are going to marry in four weeks!" I gasp the pain from early coming back full force its like the wind was knocked out of me. My wolf cries loudly begging for the pain to leave "Thank you!" Amelia smirks happily the sound of her voice makes me sick. Christian grabs her and kisses her with all his might , a sob escapes my mouth and before I know it im balling in front of Lydia and Bryan. "Oh my god blake!" Lydia catches me as I collapse. Everything goes dark as I hear people shuffling and talking "What is it?" Christian booms.

Lydia is the first face i see when I open my eyes, my head is sore and my wolf is quietly whimpering. "Blake?" She whispers rubbing my shoulder "What happened?" All I remember is passing out after, oh no. I remember Christian is marrying Amelia in four weeks. I groan covering my eyes "You passed when you started balling." Lydia removes my hand from my eyes her blue eyes stare at me "That's weird." I try to play it off "Yeah right, are you feeling okay."
I look down at the blanket "Yeah fine just tried I guess."

Lydia sits at the foot of the bed "You were crying,sobbing actually." My eyes widen slightly meeting her eyes "Christian's your mate huh?" I look at her quickly shaking my head "No why would you think that?"
She purses her lips "I could smell his scent on you this morning." I nod looking at the ceiling sighing "Don't tell anyone okay?" "Did he reject you?"
I shrug looking back at her "No but I'm sure he will." My voice cracks just as the door opens.

I'm greeted with the scent of my mate.

Christian walks in wearing a hard look on his face , his eyes drift from Lydia to me. "Give us a minute will you?" His eyes don't leave mine while he talks to Lydia. I look away and look to Lydia who doesn't reply "Leave now." Christian scowls are her , Lydia scoffs standing up "I'm glad he doesn't want to mate, he's an asshole." She storms out leaving me shocked and Christian even more pissed.

"You told her!" Christian yells at me taking a couple steps towards the bed , I curl my legs up trying to move back "She just knew." I whisper looking down "How!" He yells again louder coming right next to me "Blake look at me." Christians voice is so menacing i'm afraid , I shake my head "I didn't say anything I promise." My voice is so low I don't think he heard me.

Christian grabs my face between his fingers squeezing roughly its almost to painful to bear. "How does she know." He scowls squeezing just a little harder, I cry out "She smelt your scent on me this morning then put the pieces together." A tear runs down my face , Christian squeezes harder I feel like my jaw is going to break. "Please your hurting me." I gasp my words coming out in gasps. Christian releases me giving me a look of disgust "God your pathetic." My wolf whimpers in pain , I wipe my eyes curling my legs to my chest sighing "Amelia can't know ." Christina is seething with range , I can feel him shaking. My wolf howls to her mate wanting him to calm down but it doesn't work.

I look up at him , his eyes pierce back at me I feel worthless under his gaze.
My mind goes to a dark place where I think of slitting my wrists or overdosing, anything to get rid of the horrible ache. Christian sighs rubbing his hands over his face "I marry in four weeks , meaning I will mark her. I heard it's painful for the other mate , I just wanted to warn you." A tear escapes my eye I nod slowly "We will have pups after that, I have will a family. You can't ruin this for me." My heart breaks with every word. God how I wish that were me, having his pups and being able to be called his wife his Luna.
My wolf is whining she's hurting just as bad.

I take a deep breath "I don't know what you want me to say." My voice is quiet "Nothing don't speak to me unless I speak to you, it's that easy." Christian scowls his eyes drift down to my body "What?" I move the blanket further up my body covering everything, his eyes flash from blue to black. I know his wolf is trying to make him want me but it's not helping. Christina takes a deep breath "Why did you pass out?" The question takes me off guard , I shrug "The pain was to intense." He nods slowly scoffing "Well marking will be worst." I unintentionally rub my neck where he would have marked me. "Okay." Is all I say. Christian watches me "I..." He starts but stops , he swallows thickly inhaling deeply. 'He wants us!' My wolf sings hoping my scent will be enough to make him want us.

"Is she pregnant already?" The question comes out before I realize what I'm saying. Christians eyes widen "You have no right asking such a question." He voice raises making me shake I can see his chest clench and for a second I think he's going to hit me. "I apologize." My eyes water with fear my heart pounds making it hard to breathe. Christian scowls "I could never mate with someone so weak." A sob escapes my mouth but I quickly cover my mouth with my hand.
Tears hit me like a waterfall, my emotions coming full force.

My tears blind me I can't see anything , all I can hear is his breathing. I curl up in ball on the bed hoping he'll leave and let me be. I want to die. I want to never wake again. I can't live like this.