The Alphas Second Choice

Chapter Nine and a Half : Dreams

Blake:

My bed is warmer than usual and there is a heavy arm over my waist. I groan burying my face into something with hair and is hard. I peek my eye open, my face is buried in a chest. My head moves up and I realize it's Christian.

What the hell?

He is sound asleep , he lips in a perfect pout and snoring softly. His arm is wrapped around me securely , like he doesn't want me to leave.

Wait I was in the shower. After I had...... Uh oh.
My eyes look down at my wrists, there is no sigh of cutting. That's odd.

Christian stirs his sleepy grey eyes opening and he pouts like a little kid. It's the most adorable thing I've ever seen. "Baby why are you up so early." He groans , did he just call me baby?
I'm so confused but I don't want this to end. So I play along "I couldn't fall back asleep." I whisper looking up at him , his sleepy eyes stare back at me. They are full of love not their normal hate and disgust.

Wow I've never had someone look at my like this.

Christian gives me a lazy smile , before kissing my lips. It's a small peck but it's my first kiss. I'm not sure want to do so I stay still. "Mm I love you." Christian pulls back , brushing the hair from my face.

I don't say anything , I'm in shock. It's only then I realize there is a diamond ring on my ring finger. It's a beautiful sapphire oval on a silver band. My dream wedding ring. I stare at it in awe. Christian grabs my hand and kisses it "Mine." He whispers playfully , I can't help but grin. "Yours." I whisper. He grins back at me kissing me deeply. I moan lightly as his tongue finds mine. We kiss for a few minutes before his hands start roaming , my heart beats faster. His hand finds my breast , Christian yanks down my tank top revealing my nipple. I want to hide. I don't like him seeing my breasts.

Christian kisses my neck and chest before kissing my breast. I push him away , I don't want my first time to be in a dream.

The reality hits me. This is a dream. When I wake, he won't want me anymore. A few tears run down my face. "Blake what's wrong?" Christians tone is panicked he kisses my shoulder "Baby talk to me."

I kiss his lips once more. Wow. I never realized just how good this would feel. "This is a dream." Christians eyebrows raise , he's confused "What? Blake no it's not." I nod running my fingers through the scatter of chest hair he has.
"Yes it is but it's the best dream I could wish for." And it is.

Christian is more confused then ever "Blake what are talking about." I kiss him again and again. Grabbing his hand and looking at the silver wedding band on his ring finger. We are married.
"Christian I love you." I whisper looking into his eyes. "Blake..." I stop him "I'm sorry for what I did,  I just couldn't live with the pain.." Christian is quiet , I continue "Your my mate, the man who I'm supposed to marry and have pups with and I want that so badly." "I want that too." Christian whispers
My heart sinks  "When I wake, you won't want that anymore." I confess. Christian shakes his head "Of course I will, we've been trying for a month. Why wouldn't I want kids all of a sudden?"

My eyes water and I have to look away from his eyes. They are full of pain. I sigh wiping my eyes "Blake why are you saying this?" His tone is panicked.
"Please Christian." I whisper "No stop acting like this." He snaps. Standing up from the bed pacing "I don't know why this happened." I wonder out loud.

Why do I have to be tortured like this? Haven't I've been tortured enough?
I look at my wedding ring and smile a little. I hope I can remember this.

A/N: This is a dream Blake has when she passed out in the shower! FYI I am doing a time jump in the story!

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