Anuja's POV
I saw his blury figure in front of me through my soaked eyes. His warm hands were pressed against my cheeks and his lips were moving.. He was saying something.. Something I couldn't concentrate enough to hear as my anxiety distracted me. It was like being physically present in the world but being lost mentally some where else.
What is this happening to me? Why am I so cranky nowadays and obnoxious too. Why does my head feel like it'll burst up now? Why?!
"Anuja" his words struck my ear
I nodded wiping away my tears
"Are you okay now? Does your head still ache?"
"Nooo- I mean yes it does!" I panted
Why was I feeling out of breath and suffocated?
His small fake smile be had put up disappeared at my words. His face grew pale.
"What's happening Virat" I asked lowly
He sighed trying another smile "Umm.. We're here sitting in our bedroom.. Talking"
"No!" I screamed
Why was I screaming?!
"Something's wrong with me and you're not telling me!" I spatted
He kept silent, holding me tight
"No you've got to tell me Mr.Kohli!" I angered while I held up my head which was about to blow up
Firstly I feel so disgusted then here I have my husband hiding stuffs!
"Anuja.." He said lowering my hands from my head and kissing my knuckles. His eyes looked watery now
I stared puzzled
"You are too tensed up and have temporary anxiety at excessive levels. I know you have many questions but please listen to me.. Not all of them can I answer probably because I don't know it myself.. But please.. Forgive me! Forgive me cause all of this happening to you is because of me.. Forgive me cause I'm the cause behind your trauma.. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness" he cried
He breathed and continued "we went to the doctor today. He said you'll be fine within a couple of days but you're supposed to stay cool and calm.. Not tense up.. And not to over think. Coming to how all this happened.. I'd been to the bar yesterday and got excessively drunk. I was not in my fucking senses! It was a strip bar. I didn't know what I was doing! A girl was too clingy and acted like a total slut. I don't remember much but we talked.. And I brought her home-"
"You- whaaaaat!?"
"Baby please I'm sorry. I was out of my senses-"
"Virat how could you-"
"Damn!" He cried, his head facing down on the mattress as he whispered "I shouldn't have done this. It wasn't the right time to tell!"
I got up and away from his grip with tears running down my cheeks
"How dare you Virat! How dare you!" I still couldn't believe what he said
"No Anuja nothing happened between that girl and me that night! I swear.. You didn't listen to the whole thing-"
"Neither do I want to!"
"Nooo please you've got to listen!"he said as he grabbed your wrist as you left the room
" you've lost the right Mr " I said trying to free myself from his grip
"Nooo Anuja! You've got to listen to me!" He said as he pinned you to the nearest wall
"Look I brought her home but nothing happened! Cause you were there! There to save me and stop me. I had even forgotten that I was probably married. We had a big fight that day.. I acted like a jerk..i argued with you where it was my fault.. I fought for that slut with you, my wife, my love! Damn how could I! You couldn't beat it Anuja it was all out of your wildest imagination. And that fucking girl she literally pushed you and you feel on the floor. You had hurt your fore head and blacked out. But thank God! Thank God mom came or I don't know what would have happened to you, to me and to us! Don't know where would our relationship stand! Maybe in court.." He broke down as treats feel off his eyes
I didn't knew what to say, how to react. What ever he says came to me like a shock! My head now hurted more, like someone was driving nails in it! What all happened to me was out of my control
I wanted to speak but I couldn't. The pain was excessive to bear.
Like a stake had been driven right through my body and brain. Damn!
I fell down on the floor and my eyes got blurry again
"Anuja! Nooo I'm sorry! Wait. Hold up. I shouldn't have told you aaj this now" he cried as he picked me up
"You'll be fine love! We'll be fine! The doctor is on his way"
I blacked out
Note: okay so this was dedicated to Magenta03. Please don't mind that I dedicated you a sad imagine. Just couldn't think of anything. Hope you liked it.
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Btw anxiety sucks. Believe me it's awful.. Like normally too some people are too anxious and you then just end up over thinking and worrying about the future and all.
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Tip- if ant time you find it hard to concentrate on any thing at feel distracted just chant 'gayatri mantra' for five times and at the end chant 'om'. It helps, seriously it does. My school Hindi teacher taught this.
